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The Challenge I Agreed Too - :)
By regal777
3/19/2012 8:26:24 PM
Hey guys, I just want to update everone on my journey and my progress, regardless if you've been following me or not (I doubt it! XD) Anyways, with all seriousness and to the fulfillment of one of my wildest dreams, I have managed to keep myself sober from pornography & masturbation for 3 and a half weeks!
If I could somehow someway express to you the tears that build up in my eyes when I truley think about it, if there were any words that I could say or use to describe how I feel and how refreshing hope, joy, peace.. LIBERATION! all those things feel like, I would. As a man struggling with those problems from a young age, I'm now 18, God has answered my prayer through his grace and wisdom, in that I will not carry or deal with it past the age of 19. I know it. Through God's word (scriptures), the support of my loving Bishop, and most importantly, my Heavenly Father, my God has granted me the desire of my heart. What I did was rebuke Satan through the Word of God when I began to feel tempted or an urge to act out. I realized that where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom, and that I will not get the desires of my heart if I ask amiss, to fulfill my lusts. Since both of my parents are addicts and %90 of men struggle with the problem of sexual impurity ... because it's tough. we're men, I realized that I will never ever change myself because that is who I am, and I've been reminded of the same lesson for 8 years straight. BUT, thankfully, I've realized that prayer and studying the scriptures with the whole heart, seaking God with the whole heart, is the best way to build your character, in that obedience to the gospel of Christ will make it so that whatever circumstances life throws at you will make you more better, and not more bitter; and character building breaks the bonds and ties we have with sin, fortifies and builds our spiritual defences and our self control, for it is written: "He that hath no rule over his own spirit is like a city that is broken down, and without walls"(Proverbs 25:28), and I encourage, encourage, EN-COURAGE everybody to memorize Ephesians 6: 10 - 20, Galatians 5: 16 & 17, 1 Corinthians 2: 9, Matthew 5: 28, 1 Thessalonians 4: 3 & 4, Romans 13:14, and read D&C 84 & Psalms 119 as daily devotionals for your desire to grow deeper for the Word of God and to go on your mission if you are planning or supposed to be going soon! Let me also say that God loves you so much that he gave you his only begotten Son who felt every single pain you went through, and even though you've probably exhausted yourself from all of the times you've asked for forgiveness, let me tell you that, maybe it's to your relief or maybe it isn't, but it was to mine when I found out that I haven't really repented, at all really… even when I knelt and sobbed my eyes dry to myself and to God. Repentance requires the last and final ingredient, staying sober. If you can't do it, then you haven't really repented. See, I've thought that my many times of coming to God, asking for forgiveness, and supposedly repenting, and falling down again a week later was putting Christ's atonement to an open shame and exhausting his power. Boy was I wrong! His grace and power is so much stronger than what the devil wants us to believe (or more realistically that he is the son of God), he bared the sins of the world: past, present, and future, not just of this world, but countless other worlds that he'd created! His atonement is infinite! The scriptures declare it. See, God doesn’t want part of us, he wants all of us, we can’t give up half of ourselves to God and leave the other half to the Devil – you cannot serve two master, and a double-minded man is unstable in all his ways! Same thing, we can't do a part of what his word says.. we have to do all of it. To the best of our ability, it says in the Bible that 'thou hast commanded us to keep thy precepts diligently'. Diligence means... steady, earnest, energetic effort. Not perfection, but your sincere, honest, genuine, all-that-you-can-muster-up effort as of right now, and if you feel deep in your heart that you need to be doing better, or your conscience is telling you otherwise, then.. PRAY! Pray in your heart, out loud, in public, in secret, with somebody, without somebody... but just pray :) Like I mentioned earlier, read the scriptures, just open it and read, not just so you can be done and over with it but, really… read. See and hear what it is saying and conveying to you personally, for it is written: For the word of God is quick, and powerful, and sharper than any twoedged sword, piercing even to the dividing asunder of soul and spirit, and of the joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart.
If you guys hate and utterly abhor reading like I did, then pray and ask God that he'll give you the desire to read and to study and to ponder out the scriptures. Read James 1:5, and James 4:3, on top of what I gave you to read. Those are the scriptures that helped me, or let’s just say, did most of work for me. Remember, God will walk with & beside you, but he won't walk for you. Maybe he hasn’t answered your prayer because he already gave you the resources you need to become free: people to confess to, a desire to quit, unlimited unrestricted access to our Heavenly Father, the atonement, and the Word of God... he also gave you wisdom in how to use all the knowledge that you've acquired over the years in struggling to overcome. Come on guys, I know ya’ll are probably hardened and doubting anything anyone says. You can trust me in that I am not a hypocrite in what I am saying.

Comments:

Way to go!    
"It's always nice to see each other progressing :) I am feeling really free now too and I love it!"
posted at 21:52:38 on March 19, 2012 by iamstrong
ty    
"Thank you. I have several years before a mission,but this helped so much"
posted at 22:36:42 on March 19, 2012 by anon16
keep working hard    
"Hello my friend,

This is great, you are doing good, it is a great start

your friend from Europe"
posted at 15:52:23 on March 20, 2012 by mike81


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"Freedom from your transgression will come through sincere faith, true repentance, willing obedience, and the giving of self. Why the giving of self? Because selfishness is at the root of your problem. Where selfishness and transgression flourish, the Spirit of the Lord can’t enter your life to bless you. To succeed, you must conquer your selfishness. When your beacon is focused on self, it does little more than blind your vision. When turned outward through acts of kindness and love, it will light your path to happiness and peace. "

— Richard G. Scott

General Conference May 1990