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Trapped
By TTT
3/18/2012 9:48:25 PM
It seems like every time I try to get away from the animal inside me it just comes right back. It's a never ending cycle. I feel like no one can help me. I want to set up an appointment with my bishop but I feel like it will be the usual, he tells me to read and pray and I get weak and get into that cage again. I wouldn't wish these addictions on my worst enemy. I've never told anyone this but I might as well. When I was younger(before I got baptized) me and my sister touched each other. This happened again with my cousin. I don't know if because of this i have such a strong sexual drive. I wish I could go to those meetings but I'm just a kid. I would have to tell my parents And I really don't want to lose their trust and stress my mom out even more. I guess this is just a point in my life where I realize how sucky this world really is.

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Sent you an email    
"I'm sure people will have a lot to say on this. I'm praying for you."
posted at 23:29:33 on March 18, 2012 by moroni
Satan    
"Will whisper all kinds of lies to keep you stuck. The spirit of your addiction is always there and that's how Satan wants it. He has done it since the beginning of time. Even in the garden of Eden, when Adam and Eve partook of the fruit, the first thing he said to them was, "cover yourselves, and hide from God". He uses the same game plan today. He is cunning, but not all that clever. Are sins are truly never hidden, we only tell ourselves that because of our own pride.

You are not too young to attend meetings. If the Lord gave you this weakness, That means that he will help you overcome it. I also means he will give your mom the strength it will take to face the truth. The longer you hold this pain in darkness, the longer you stay stuck. Ask any recovering addict and they will tell you the same thing. Every addict wants to think that their situation is special or different, but it is not.

Your Bishop is doing what all good Bishops do who do not understand addiction. It is so sad because we live in a day where addiction is in just about every home, and this is not something that you will be able to read and pray yourself out of. You need help and you need to take this out of the shadows and let your family help you. Don't listen to Satan's lies.

You are not a terrible person and you are not weaker than others who can overcome this problem without working the steps of recovery. If others struggle, repent, and never return to the sin, they are not addicted. From your own words, you are not able to stop and you are probably addicted. It is better to get treatment when you are young. You can heal and have a beautiful life, please trust in the Lord and fear no man, nor what they may say or do.

FYI, I am a wife and mother who has face this reality and I am still alive. I have a husband and two sons with addictions. Some of us attend 12 step meetings and my husband and I work the steps daily. There has been amazing healing. My husband is a new man. he was once filled with anger and was not a very kind man to his family for many, many years. He is happy and filled with love and the spirit of the Lord now. Everyone who knows hims sees that he is happy and kind now. He suffered for over 30 years, thinking he was just a bad person, but he was not, he was just addicted Things are not always easy as our children are still struggling, but I, like your mom had to face this x3 over 2 years ago, and I am learning how to navigate a new normal. I survived and your mom will too. In fact, I thank the Lord daily for my addicted loved ones as they have brought me closer to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ that I could have ever done on my own. Faith is very real, and I now live by it daily.

You can do this!!! Have faith and do it God's way and he will give you all you need to overcome.
And you can overcome, for with God nothing is impossible!"
posted at 23:58:41 on March 18, 2012 by angelmom
Keep going to the bishop...    
"Sometimes I feel like the Bishop says the same thing everytime. But I like to think of the Bible story about Naaman. It is in 2 Kings I think... Naaman suffers from leprosy and is told to wash in the Jordan River 7 times. Not just once. And wouldn't it stink if he only washed 6 times?

I try to put myself in Naaman's shoes. So I'm plagued with this addiction. I ask the Lord what I need to do to be healed. He tells me that I should meet with the Bishop weekly, monthly, whatever it is for me. And then I say "Oh but it's just one more time. I'm just as clean now as I'm going to be the second time" or in my case "It's just the same thing over and over again. I'm gonna hear the same advice." But why did Naaman have to bathe 7 times? And why in the Jordan River? We don't know. But it was God's plan for him to be healed. Why do I have to do this regularly? And why with the Bishop? I don't know. But it is God's plan for healing for me.

God has a plan of healing for you. Talk to Him. He is ALWAYS there."
posted at 00:15:14 on March 19, 2012 by iamstrong


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— Terrance D. Olson

“Teaching Morality to Your Children,” Ensign, Mar. 1981