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By TTT
3/13/2012 1:23:05 AM
I just blogged and then I read some people's stories. Some stuff just makes me want to cry. I feel sorry for them and scared that I will end up just like them. I don't want to be thirty and married with kids still struggling. I hate masterbation and pornography with every single strand in my body, but then again I keep going back and I can't foresee myself stoping. I have such easy access to pornography and it is so easy to masterbate with no one knowing. I don't wan to live this life that I'm on. I want to return to my heavenly father but things are just so hard. Their is an animal inside of me that I release a lot, too much. I don't want to hit rock bottom. I feel like their is no turning back. I am lost and broken. I feel like I can't even begin to make my way back to that strait and narrow path. I'm not angry with the lord just sad and misunderstood.

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no worries little man    
"We'll figure something out. I know what you mean, its sad reading those stories and think will that be me. But something has to change in our minds, so begin the process of changing your mind. Accept the fact that things are going to change in your life soon and prepare for that because it shouldn't be a shock to your habits.

Is your iPod your only access of porn?"
posted at 02:02:29 on March 13, 2012 by moroni
Better Now    
"You are already a success because you have started to see it for what the addiction really is-slavery. The bonds which can be broken. The animal in us can be laid on the altar for CHRIST has taken it when we let go. To myself and all others who have more to let go I say go for it. Let HIM and do not despair for HE IS REAL and will free you."
posted at 00:39:20 on March 14, 2012 by Anonymous
He can heal you!    
"Read the scriptures. Look up where he heals people. Look up where he recovers people. Look up where talks about overcoming. There is hope! Many of those older than you on the site will probably tell you that they wish they had been where you are this early on! You don't realize you've gotten a head start on repentance. You can change! This isn't something where you are trapped! We often say that we are trapped in addiction but that is when we don't accept help. With God, nothing is impossible!

So rejoice! There is so much hope!"
posted at 00:46:52 on March 14, 2012 by iamstrong
focus on the solution    
"There is a solution and hope, you don't need to focus on the problems,

It is challenging and as you will learn and progress but you don't have to fight this war alone

Your friend from europe"
posted at 01:58:13 on March 14, 2012 by mike81
Whenever you are ready    
"The 12 Step method of applying the Atonement will work for anyone who is ready to do whatever it takes to quit. I could tell you many stories of people with years and even decades of sobriety. The sad stories are out there as well. Use them to motivate you to change.

I'll share one extreme case. He was active in the church, return missionary, a high counselor and stake young men's president before he was excommunicated. He later got re-baptized, then disfellowshipped. At that point his wife divorced him, he lost his career and went to prison as a homosexual pedophile. He spent 3 years in prison before he woke up and wanted to change. He found the LDS 12 Step program in prison and started working the Steps his last two years there. By the time I met him he had already changed quite a bit. It took a few years after his bishop felt that he was ready before the brethren in SLC approved him for refellowship and then he had to talk to a general authority before he received his full priesthood & temple blessings back because of the seriousness of his case. He even has been able to reestablish relationships with some of his children. His family had cut ties with him completely.

When the General Authority gave him all his blessings back he told him it was just like they were never gone. If my friend can be completely forgiven, anybody can that is willing to do whatever it takes. You can be healed just don’t get impatient if it takes time.

The Atonement Works,
John"
posted at 14:40:59 on March 14, 2012 by justjohn


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