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By Tjditch
3/7/2012 9:09:01 AM
Here I am again, 6 days sober... This last year has been an huge struggle for me... I can't seem to get this monkey off my back. But I can't keep doing what I am doing. I hate that I have desires to look at the filth. To respond to it... I have been reading a book that goes into detail about our relationship with porn, how it's romantic and we actually begin to love it like a dysfunctional partner... I'm not as codependent as unused to be but this is my major codependent relationship. Always there when I need it, never rejecting. But it never fulfills me either, just leaves me empty and alone. It hurts myself and the people around me. I want to be free of it, and thats why I am here. One more slcommunity or place where I have some accountability. I'm sick of being sick... I will get through today, and let tomorrow take care of tomorrow. Thanks for listening.

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One day at a time    
"1 day a time. I am a long time addict, I have all sorts of issues myself. But I decided to make a week "porn free week" that was the goal. Next I had "porn free month". It helped. When I had the urge I just kept reminding myself that I couldn't do that because it was "porn free month". I even told myself that after porn free month I could go back if I wanted. I haven't.
It is hard. Everyday I fight the urge, every day!!! Usually every hour.

A good song suggestion too..."Born Free" by Andy Williams.
I sing along, but I change the words to "Porn Free". The song takes on new meaning when sung like that."
posted at 17:24:22 on March 7, 2012 by WHATTODO


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