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A Challenge I Agreed To
By regal777
2/27/2012 6:25:17 PM
Hey guys, well... I've been struggling with an addiction to pornography and masturbation for over eight years, I'm now eighteen. It's been really tough and kind of hard to describe the whole mess and the whole mental absurdity and the whole self inflicted persecution that I went through... I mean, I'm sure many of you here know and understand how overpowering your addict, or your carnal nature, can be. I was converted to the faith around two years ago, I told two bishops about my addiction, they tried helping me out, one of them sent me to a professional counselor, but.. things did not work between me and the counselor, I mean, I'm pretty sure he was sort of trying, but.. never really met me at my level of need (maybe he volunteered, who knows). After that I've been on and off, the longest I have ever went without relapsing was two and half weeks, and close to the end of that streak, I would compare myself to the state of Mt. St. Helens right before it erupted, it was just all bad. After my ward got a new bishop, I was forced by my conscience to open up to my bishop during an interview to see if I'm worthy to go to the temple, he gave me the twelve step manual with the LDS standards and principles incorporated in it. I read through it, a couple of times; both of my parents are addicts, my mother is hooked on cigarettes and narcotics, my dad is addicted to pornography (he doesn't think I know/ my mom knows and confronted him, but he denied the accusations) and yeah, they are separated. It's really hard to quit, especially in a household where you're around addictive personalities. I felt like my addiction was a result of a generational curse being passed down from father to son. I know you guys don't really go deep into spiritual warfare, but.. I think that is the key to becoming free from the bondage of addiction. Why be spending a lifetime recovering, when through Christ and his word become FREE.
I've been recently reading the scriptures and seeing what God's word has to say about addiction and spiritual bondage, plus the testimonies of those who have claimed to have received FREEDOM. Here is what I discovered:
In Matthew 4:1 -11, our Lord and Savior, being Jesus Christ, went out into the wilderness for 40 days, and from what I've learned from my bishop, 40 anything means a really long time (i.e. Israel wondered forty years in the wilderness, Noah forty days above the floods), and for most of us, we go through addiction for a really long time. Well, Jesus in this case was led by the Spirit into the wilderness, which I believe was for more than one purpose. It says in 1 Peter 2:21, "For even hereunto were ye called: because Christ also suffered for us, leaving us an example, that ye should follow his steps." Do you see that? In all that Christ did, he set the light and EXAMPLE for us to follow in his ways, or how Peter puts it, 'steps'. Him being perfect, he paved a flawless way for us to defeat and overcome and challenges that life throws at us. Now, back tracking to Christ being tempted in the wilderness we can see that one of his purposes in going through the wilderness was to set an example for us to follow. So, what happened? Well, Christ was tempted by the devil, by the lusts of his flesh, and by the riches and glories of the kingdoms of Earth, or simply put 'the world'. Now if we could just see and focus on how exactly Jesus dealt with the temptations. After the third time, he finally conquered and trampled the Devil and his crispy critters through none other than.. the WORD of God!
Its really amazing if you think about it, it says in Hebrews 4:12, “For the word of God is quick, and powerful, and sharper than any twoedged sword, piercing even to the dividing asunder of soul and spirit, and of the joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart.” It is the weapon that Jesus used to attack the Devil and any temptation that was thrown at him. Just think about it, God’s word created Earth, planets, solar systems, the universe, and the best of his creation… us! So why don’t we have the belief and faith that we can overcome our addictions and strongholds through ‘the sword of the Spirit, which is the Word of God’ as it is written in Ephesians 6: 17. I think that for me personally, instead of just guarding my heart with the shield of faith, I’m going to take the offensive and use the word of God to rebuke the Devil. Again, I know that I can do that because Jesus did so when taking to Peter in Matthew 16: 23, “But he turned, and said unto Peter, Get thee behind me, Satan: thou art an offence unto me: for thou savourest not the things that be of God, but those that be of men”.
I’m just puzzled greatly at the lack of knowledge I had of the Word of God, I mean, the only scripture I knew was, “Jesus wept”, and even then I couldn’t tell you where to find it. If you guys also notice, that Jesus didn't just quote unrelated scripture, he quoted the scripture that directly correlated to the assault of Satan against him! When Satan told him to turn the rocks into bread he didn't say 'for God so loved the world that he have his only begotten Son…’ he said, "Man shall not live by bread alone, but by every word that proceedeth out of the mouth of God"! Are you guys getting it? If we want to be free we have to memorize the scripture that corresponds with our addiction or the certain bind that the devil has against us! The more 'weaponry' we add to our arsenal the more we'll become victorious over the powers of hell! I mean, for me, six months was enough for me to say that I’m sick and tired of doing what I’m doing, ..but eight years? No, not one more, I’m not going to cry or complain anymore, I’m going to fight. I feel like most of us have given up, and become beat down by our shame, guilt, dissapointment, the way we treat others and the way others treat us back that we become helpless. Let me bear you my testimony that, I know that Jesus Christ is the redeemer, and he felt the pains of your current condition, I know that the word of God is different than anything else you'll ever read, I know that it is alive, and breathing, it is divine and is the only book that reads us, I know that through prayer and fasting, through continual meditation on the word of God, you can be free from bondage. I’ll be updating you guys about my progress.

Comments:

I hope you can find your way    
"I can feel the frustration of your battle. You can do it. Others have done it. in my own life, honesty was a big part of getting some sobriety. I also really liked this article.

http://newlifehabits.com/2009/11/05/using-a-counterintuitive-approach-to-overcome-porn-addiction/

It talks about not locking horns with the devil. I use to focus on not masturbating. I would focus on it all day ever day and the best I could do was about 2 weeks. My strategy now is to not even think about it. If I start to think about it or the precurors (triggers) I start to do something else --- I call someone. I write down my feelings. I do chores around the house. the first few months of recovery, I got a lot of stuff done around the house just so I didnt have boredom time to think about it.

I pray to God every day that I will be able to overcome any temptation for the day. Its a battle one day at a time -- but the best strategy is to not engage the fight-- just go around. :-)

may you find peace!"
posted at 21:18:52 on February 27, 2012 by Anonymous
Im 17, similar situation    
"I still haven't talked to my bishop, tho my problem has been for about 7 mo the or so. I have a few questions. What are your plans for a mission? How do you feel about it? Is it hard to go to church? Youth meeting? Seminary?

And most important, I found out my dad looks at porn, what do I do?????"
posted at 05:37:13 on March 12, 2012 by moroni
Talk to your dad    
"Moroni, I encourage you to talk to your bishop and to your dad. With both of you dealing with this and trying to work through it, you can be a great support to one another and hold each other accountable. Also, you can grow closer by working through this trial together. Be strong. I am fully aware of the temptations that you face (we all face). Just because some of us are adults, doesn't mean we are less tempted. I pray you will find success and peace as you work to overcome this. God bless you."
posted at 08:42:54 on March 12, 2012 by want2change
Ask your dad for a priedthood blessing...    
"Moroni,
As a dad and a former bishop, I encourage you to see your Bishop ASAP...part of the addiction is fear of consequences. Your bishop is on your team, and will help you through this. You cannot quit on your own. Above all, ask your Bishop and your dad for a priesthood blessing. He will help you a great deal. Put the men in your life to work for you. Rid yourself of the shame that comes with this. Todsy is day one. You can do this...."
posted at 15:49:48 on March 12, 2012 by chefdalet
I see    
"@Want2Change I'm planning on seeing the bishop, that's not a question. My dad is another situation that seems like a ticking bomb. Thanks for the tips.

@Chef I dont plan on quitting on my own, I'm just trying yo get ready for when I do confess. With my dads addiction, I dont think he can give me a blessing. But thank you."
posted at 18:46:20 on March 15, 2012 by moroni


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