Day 1 again
By no more
2/14/2012 7:56:41 AM
I am at day one again after having the longest period of abstinence I have had in a really long time. I am happy that I had been clean for so long, but am sad that I didn't withstand, and that I did not head the warning signs of the Holy Ghost. This whole journey has taught me that the purpose in this life is to learn to rely on Heavenly Father completely, and through His power, I can be changed by the healing and enabling power of the Atonement, and continue to change until I have lost all desire for sin. Over the years I have fallen short so many times, only to realize that I have to go through the whole repentance process again, and quite frankly, it at times has been rather frustrating. When I have prayed for the strength to resist temptation, and to recognize when feelings that I have aren't from God, I have been able to change my thoughts before they lead to actions- I have been able to change my thoughts with help from my Heavenly Father
I have come to learn that when I ignore those negative thoughts, or let myself fall to one of my triggers, I fall- when I trust Heavenly Father with my feelings, and completely surrender all negative thoughts to Him, that is when I gain control and am able to abstain. How I desire to abstain, and to always be worthy to enter the Holy Temple of the Lord.


Day 2    
"Honest hope helped me start again as well. These steps really do help me take all the negative, emotional trauma in my life and refocus it to Someone who can do something about it. I was reminded by my "text support" to lay it on the altar, and claim the blessings God has promised to me. The spirit reminded me of the "shield and protection" we have been given. He has shielded me from so much. The commandments I have kept, and the durations of abstinence HE has helped me obtain have given me oil in my lamp to try again. We are not beat unless we stop trying. I learned something from this last loss of sobriety. I need to let go of my hate, anger, frustration, and envy by giving it to God instead of trying to drown it with addictive behaviors. Ya think I would have learned that one sooner. I pray and hope I will remember it the next minute my emotions run low."
posted at 08:12:13 on February 14, 2012 by Anonymous
Day 1 is always hard for me.    
"The personal shame and guilt on day one nearly drown me. I applaud you "No MORE"! With God NOTHING is impossible. He will help you gain and maintain sobriety. I desire with you for the full blessings of the temple to be with you and Mr. Anonymous on Day 2. He will help it happen for us again. He helped us to the temple before, and I believe HE will help us return to claim those blessings once again....FOREVER!"
posted at 08:26:08 on February 14, 2012 by aspar

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"Just as the landfill requires dedicated work and attention, laboriously applying layer after layer of fill to reclaim the low-lying ground, our lives also require the same vigilance, continually applying layer after layer of the healing gift of repentance.…Our Father in Heaven and His Son, Jesus Christ, feel sorrow when we choose to remain in sin, when the gift of repentance made possible through the Atonement can clean, reclaim, and sanctify our lives. When we gratefully accept and use this precious gift, we can enjoy the beauty and usefulness of our lives... "

— Shayne M. Bowen

General Conference October 2006