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How I Found Sobriety
By ETTE
2/7/2012 1:08:05 PM
Today is day 131 of my recovery. Some people don’t like keeping track, but I find that helps motivate me, and it’s one way for me to measure whether or not my program is working. I have never been sober this long before. The closest I’ve ever come was somewhere around the 100 day mark. The difference this time is that I’m recovering instead of just abstaining.

These are the dailies I’ve followed in this stretch of my recovery: pray morning and night and before each meal, surrender each temptation by saying in my heart or out loud, “Whatever I’m truly looking for through my lust, may I find it in thee, my Father.”, call my sponsor and report how the day went, read my scriptures, read from the white book, and work on one of the steps.

My dailies have kept me out of trouble, but more importantly, they have started to change my heart. Before I started this phase of my recovery, I felt entitled to lust and the addiction. I desired it and longed for it, even though I knew it was bad for me. Now I only long to grow closer to the Lord and to further His cause. The third step prayer has really helped me change my heart. I used to say it each day, but now I only say it as needed.

I hope everybody who is still struggling and suffering will also find a way out. I know that for me, following the program outlined in my Sexaholics Anonymous group has been the only way I’ve ever found true sobriety. I just finished sharing a very long and thorough 11,000 word fourth step inventory with my sponsor, and now I’m working on step six. The steps are teaching me so much about who I really am, and what I need to do to make my life right with God.

The exciting part of my recovery is that every day gets better. I understand that I’m still an infant in sobriety, but I look forward to the day when I can look back over decades of sobriety and recovery. I still face adversity and temptations daily, but I now have the serenity to face the challenges life throws at me, and I have the ability to surrender my temptations and move on with my life.

Comments:

Ette,    
"This is great! Thank you for sharing your inspiring recovery! Keep up the good work...one day at a time!"
posted at 13:42:58 on February 7, 2012 by Anonymous
Hooah!    
"Enough said!"
posted at 16:20:57 on February 7, 2012 by justjohn
congrats ette    
"Really pleased for you.
God bless."
posted at 20:46:27 on February 7, 2012 by ruggaexpat
congratulation    
"Great post,
this is just fantastic"
posted at 11:57:59 on February 8, 2012 by mike81
congratulation    
"Great post,
this is just fantastic"
posted at 11:58:07 on February 8, 2012 by mike81


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"If, through our unrighteous choices, we have lost our footing on that path, we must remember the agency we were given, agency we may choose to exercise again. I speak especially to those overcome by the thick darkness of addiction. If you have fallen into destructive, addictive behaviors, you may feel that you are spiritually in a black hole. As with the real black holes in space, it may seem all but impossible for light to penetrate to where you are. How do you escape? I testify the only way is through the very agency you exercised so valiantly in your premortal life, the agency that the adversary cannot take away without your yielding it to him. "

— Robert D. Hales

General Conference, April 2006