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How I Found Sobriety
By ETTE
2/7/2012 1:08:05 PM
Today is day 131 of my recovery. Some people don’t like keeping track, but I find that helps motivate me, and it’s one way for me to measure whether or not my program is working. I have never been sober this long before. The closest I’ve ever come was somewhere around the 100 day mark. The difference this time is that I’m recovering instead of just abstaining.

These are the dailies I’ve followed in this stretch of my recovery: pray morning and night and before each meal, surrender each temptation by saying in my heart or out loud, “Whatever I’m truly looking for through my lust, may I find it in thee, my Father.”, call my sponsor and report how the day went, read my scriptures, read from the white book, and work on one of the steps.

My dailies have kept me out of trouble, but more importantly, they have started to change my heart. Before I started this phase of my recovery, I felt entitled to lust and the addiction. I desired it and longed for it, even though I knew it was bad for me. Now I only long to grow closer to the Lord and to further His cause. The third step prayer has really helped me change my heart. I used to say it each day, but now I only say it as needed.

I hope everybody who is still struggling and suffering will also find a way out. I know that for me, following the program outlined in my Sexaholics Anonymous group has been the only way I’ve ever found true sobriety. I just finished sharing a very long and thorough 11,000 word fourth step inventory with my sponsor, and now I’m working on step six. The steps are teaching me so much about who I really am, and what I need to do to make my life right with God.

The exciting part of my recovery is that every day gets better. I understand that I’m still an infant in sobriety, but I look forward to the day when I can look back over decades of sobriety and recovery. I still face adversity and temptations daily, but I now have the serenity to face the challenges life throws at me, and I have the ability to surrender my temptations and move on with my life.

Comments:

Ette,    
"This is great! Thank you for sharing your inspiring recovery! Keep up the good work...one day at a time!"
posted at 13:42:58 on February 7, 2012 by Anonymous
Hooah!    
"Enough said!"
posted at 16:20:57 on February 7, 2012 by justjohn
congrats ette    
"Really pleased for you.
God bless."
posted at 20:46:27 on February 7, 2012 by ruggaexpat
congratulation    
"Great post,
this is just fantastic"
posted at 11:57:59 on February 8, 2012 by mike81
congratulation    
"Great post,
this is just fantastic"
posted at 11:58:07 on February 8, 2012 by mike81


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"Lucifer will do all in his power to keep you captive. You are familiar with his strategy. He whispers: “No one will ever know.” “Just one more time.” “You can’t change; you have tried before and failed.” “It’s too late; you’ve gone too far.” Don’t let him discourage you. When you take the path that climbs, that harder path of the Savior, there are rewards along the way. When you do something right, when you resist temptation, when you meet a goal, you will feel very good about it. It is a very different kind of feeling than you have when you violate commandments—an altogether different feeling. It brings a measure of peace and comfort and provides encouragement to press on. "

— Richard G. Scott

General Conference May 1990