I'm doing good
By anon16
2/3/2012 7:36:49 PM
Well, so far I am doing pretty good. I have been trying a lot harder then I ever have before. This week has been challenging because I have been sick. In the past, that was my trigger and my breaking point. Because I couldn't reason myself out of it, because I couldn't think. This week was different. I prayed. So so many times, when I was tempted. I made it a point to read my scriptures, and I've been making sure I am praying every morning, the daily things.

I am trying to understand more what I can and cannot do.

Was I perfect this week? No. But I relied on the Lord a lot more then I have previously. And I was surprised, looking back how much He helped me.

On another matter,
How often do you generally meet with your bishop? I'm at a loss as to how much I need to and for how long. This week I am meeting with him, but it is mostly just to apologize for my behavior at the previous meeting.

What is the purpose of meeting with your bishop? I'm trying to understand if it is helping or hurting,and how do I tell if it is?
Suggestions with that would be helpful. I've been praying and pondering, and I go back to every 2 weeks, but I don't know about the time.


"I was 21 the first time I mentioned my addiction to a bishop, but he brushed it off like it was no big deal. I was 25 the next time I even considered mentioning it and this Bishop took me serious. Five years ago when I first started addressing my addiction, I met with my Bishop every other week, but I shook his hand every week as a brief check in and to make contact with him. I needed this when I was early in recovery for I didn't feel I was worth anything. I was one of the worst people in the world for the addiction I have and who could even want to be around me after knowing. He showed me I was worth something in his eyes and in HF's eyes.

The purpose of me meeting with him was for some accountability on my part. Meeting with him helped me in meeting small goals in pursuit of a larger goal. His purpose in meeting with me.....well Im not sure exactly, but I would guess it would be to offer support (not only for my addiction, but my mom passed away a few months before I started working with him) to check in with me and offer counsel. I looked forward to meeting with him and I felt safe talking with him for he never judged me or made me feel like crap, for I had already done that to myself. After a few meetings with him, I realized that if some random, person who knows all that I have done can see me as human being and trust me with his little ones, then I needed to start seeing myself as a human being who has struggles and is working on them.

Ironically, my bishop trusted me to be around his kids and watch them. His trust in me, gave me reason and purpose to continue my recovery for I would never want to expose his kids to the person I was/am when involved with pn.

Now it's 5 years later and I have a new bishop, who Ive met with but have not formed an open relationship with yet. He knows everything, but I've had a hard time connecting with him. I feel like I am wasting his time meeting with him. This is my attitude not his. I know he would be pleased to meet with me more often if I would allow, but I don't. Im too stubborn.

Not sure if this helped......but good luck and I hope you can find a balance for what works for you and what is best for you."
posted at 21:37:18 on February 3, 2012 by rachp
I think    
"That we meet with the Bishop for the healing process and to help us move on to live the lives we were meant to live and to be the people we truly are. The Priesthood is God's power. It blesses and heals. The thing that really held me back before meeting with the bishop is that I couldn't let go. Guilt, shame, secrecy can make us feel trapped. Our sins can become our own secret combinations. But meeting with your Priesthood leader, the Bishop, can lend you support and help to heal you. You just have to remember that when you give it up to the Lord, you are leaning on Him. Do it His way. I don't know what He has in store for you. But study it out and pray. God has the answers to all of your questions."
posted at 04:23:33 on February 4, 2012 by Iamstrong
Good for you!    
"I am glad you are doing well. Three cheers for you!!

I broke in a lot of bishops from the time I was 16 to about 32-33, but none of them got it. The next one I talked to was the first one who understood. When our first meeting came to an end he said, “We are going to be working on this for a while. I want to see you every week.” I can't describe the relief I felt to finally have some support. The last time we meet was four years later, just as he was being released. The weekly visits tapered off after a while to whenever he or I felt like we needed it. I think you really do need someone you can turn to and share what you are going through. Particularly with your age and gender as you mentioned in a previous blog many 12 Step options aren't open to you. The fact that you keep praying and feeling like every 2 weeks probably means that is what you should shoot for. RachP's idea of still touching bases with him on the weeks in between meeting sounds good because it gives you more frequent accountability. If you are going through a tough time and it will be a while before you see him again, don't be afraid to ask to meet with him earlier. Get whatever you need to recover. About working on the 12 Steps with your bishop (previous post again) maybe your bishop was just pushing you where you need to go, but didn't want to, or maybe it is just not working. You will have to let the Spirit guide you on that, but either way I would still work the steps. They have the power to apply the Atonement to anything. If you need to just use this site and the woman from here who is your sponsor to work through the steps. You should rely on your sponsor either way. They are an important part of recovery. You need someone you can contact 24/7 because addiction knows no time schedule.

Glad you are doing well.

posted at 13:54:42 on February 4, 2012 by justjohn

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