Day 1 (again)
By will
1/23/2012 5:06:26 PM
This is my first time on this site. For many years I've strugled with p/m and other obsessive compulsive behaviors. I've started over many times, but I do believe I'm learning thiings along the way. I've come to the knowledge that the first step to complete recovery is to have an intense and total desire and commitment to finally break free. I've felt I've been there before and at times have done failrly well. This time must be different That is why I'm here now. I believe blogging my progress and successes will be helpfull. I will also record any struggles or shortcomings.

I want to start with my mission statement or committment
My vision is to be in control of my life. I want to be free, Free to choose and act upon my choices. I will make personal choices based on personal integrity and forethought. I will discover my inner strenghts and break free from obsessive and compulsive behavoirs. I will live an open, honest life with no secrets or hidden activities. I will find joy in my life and share it with those I love.
I will be the husband my wife deserves by living up to our marital vows to honor, respect and cherish her. I will support and care for her. I will be patient and kind. I will be worthy of her trust.

I promise to do everything in my power to accomplish my objective, I will never stop trying. I will never give up. I know with all my heart that I have a loving Heavenly Father who will give me the courage, power and strength I will need to be successful. I will call upon him daily to assist me. I will study the scriptures, attend my meetings and serve to the best of my ability. I know as I am worthy of His help, I will be successful. I (WE) will win.


Welcome aboard the crazy train!    
"I really do want to welcome you to this site and more importantly recovery. It can be a crazy but wonderful ride. You really do need an overwhelming desire to quit. You have to want it bad enough to do whatever it takes, even give up control to the Lord. I don’t mean to be critical, but you sound like me when I was working John’s plan. I had hundreds of them and Satan tore every one of them to shreds. I never started to progress until I admitted to the Lord that I obviously couldn’t beat this thing and it was His problem now. Don’t worry too much about it. If you are lucky you will convert to God’s plan faster than me and stick to it more consistently. At least I pray that you do. I take back control so naturally I usually don’t realize it until I’ve rolled the car.

I usually, maybe always, don’t like how the Lord gets me where I want to go, but the final destination IS ALWAYS better than I was hoping for. The road He has me on right now I would never, never have chosen for myself, but even though the ride is just beginning I have decided it is probably going to be a wonderful thing, so I am trying to just buckle up, hang on and shut my mouth!

We love you and care about you even without knowing you, because we understand what you are going through from personal experience.

All aboard!
posted at 18:13:07 on January 23, 2012 by justjohn

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"I have come to know that thoughts, like water, will stay on course if we make a place for them to go. Otherwise, our thoughts follow the course of least resistance, always seeking the lower levels. Probably the greatest challenge and the most difficult thing you will face in mortal life is to learn to control your thoughts. In the Bible it says, as a man ‘thinketh in his heart, so is he’ (Prov. 23:7). One who can control his thoughts has conquered himself. As you learn to control your thoughts, you can overcome habits, even degrading personal habits. You can gain courage, conquer fear, and have a happy life. "

— Boyd K. Packer

BYU, Speeches of the Year, 26 Sept. 1967