1 Week...
By losthope
1/3/2012 7:03:32 PM
Or should I say weak. That's how I'm feeling right now. I don't want to do it but my body is craving mb so badly right now. I feel like I'm doing exactly what many of you have warned against: "locking horns with the devil." I can't stop thinking about how much I do and don't want to do it. Earlier today I was feeling so positive, but now the temptation's getting really strong.

Also I was planning to go to an ARP meeting in my area tonight. At first it sounded like a really good idea, but now...I'm just freaking out a little bit right now. My palms are sweaty and I'm not thinking straight.

What was your first ARP meeting like? How did you feel before? Did you see anyone you knew? I'm from a really small town and I'm afraid I'll see a coworker or classmate. Also I don't know how to tell my parents where I am going. Please tell me what the meetings are like. Do you have to introduce yourself the first time? Not sure I'm ready for that.


Good job on 1 week! :)    
"I had someone to go with to my first meeting, and that made it so much easier to go. When I first went to the meeting myself, I was terrified, and I also thought I'd see someone I knew. I never did, but even if I did, I don't think it would have mattered much because there's a spirit of love and understanding there that I haven't felt at other places.

I haven't been to many meetings, but you won't have to share anything, even your name, if you don't want to. You can always pass. Most of the times I've gone, I haven't had much to say. But it's definitely worth going! :) Good luck to you!"
posted at 19:29:29 on January 3, 2012 by needinghelp
Afraid someone will see you?    
"If they see you at the meeting, you'll be seeing them at the meeting, too. They won't tell anyone about you, because they don't want you to tell anyone about them.

As Needinghelp mentioned, the people at these meetings are filled with love and understanding, more so than anyone else you have ever met! They know what you are going through! Go!!"
posted at 20:23:07 on January 3, 2012 by beclean
"Scared the crap out of me. A bunch of irrational fears came to my head. I didn't know what to expect. I was scared. Plus I felt like I'd even be alone there. Like even though they were addicted, they had a different story and didn't understand me.

BUT THE TRUTH IS, there is nothing to be afraid of. And it doesn't matter if their story is different. There is one thing that unites everyone there. You are looking for hope. So go. You won't regret it in the long run."
posted at 01:28:31 on January 4, 2012 by iamstrong
I was terrified going my first time too..    
"I was imagining a bunch of white vans parked out front and seedy people inside. I was imagining seeing co-workers and neighbors there. People would be laughing at me and shaming me. they would facebook my check-in.. Eventually I realized that my fear of never recovering was scarier than going to a 12 step meeting.

It was scary the first time I went. The first meeting was horrible. There was only 4 people that showed up. I didnt have anything to say. I was scared. Didnt feel like I belonged.

It took about 3-4 meetings before I saw the value of the meeting. I started to feel mercy for others and for myself. I started to see people I wanted to emulate and people I wanted to not be like. After 9 months of meetings, I find that I miss them if I have to skip.

FYI -- I attend the local SAA meeting rather than the LDS ARP meeting. the people are mostly just like me. "
posted at 08:57:14 on January 4, 2012 by Hurtallover
Great Comments    
"My experience was just like all the rest. I drove 45 minutes to the next stake so that I could retain my anonymity, as I was serving as Bishop at the time. The guys at that meeting quickly came to be my "brothers". We shared a bond that was stronger than simply brothers in the gospel sense. We laughed together and cried together. Now I'm leading my own ARP and PASG groups, 799 days into recovery. The brethren still tell the same stories about how they sat in their car for weeks, terrified to come in. The spirit is strong in our meetings, and for some it's the only exposure to the gospel they have for the week. After a few months, most of the brethren don't care who sees them's part of the process. You'll be great. Suck up your irrational fears and trust in the Lord. You can win this war!"
posted at 09:02:35 on January 4, 2012 by chefdalet
I went    
"I guess the schedule I got online was wrong. I went to the scheduled place but nobody was there. So I got on the internet again and found another schedule that said there was a PASG meeting for women at a different location. Once I got there the meeting was over and they were just chatting. But it was the wives' meeting! I was really embarrassed to have gone to the completely wrong meeting. But then like all of you told me they were all wonderful and very nonjudgmental.

I attended the actual PASG meeting the next night after the wives told me where/when it was really held. I think the meetings are something that will really help me. I plan to keep going.

Thank you for your encouragement! I think I just needed that push out the door."
posted at 17:52:22 on January 5, 2012 by losthope
"I went to my first meeting last night. I was the youngest one there by far, but that gave me hope. hope that i can beat this before it takes over my whole life.
I didn't see anyone i knew, but if i had, i wouldn't have thought anything of it. if they have this same problem, may God help them. You are there, they are there, lots of people are not. don't be embarrassed. you are taking a step many people are not.
you just have to say your name, if that is all you want to say.
I hope you chose to go, it was a turning point for me."
posted at 16:51:18 on March 12, 2012 by SeminaryKid

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