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By needinghelp
12/27/2011 1:39:01 AM
I've struggled with this problem for what seems like forever. I have a hard time remembering not having it. I have tried to give it up hundreds of times, and I've talked to bishops. I just can't seem to let it go, and it makes me feel so weak and so worthless. I pray and I don't feel anything. I've just about given up hope of ever being free or clean.

When I started to write I didn't mean to complain about my life. There really is a lot for me to be thankful for. It's just hard for me to feel happy or grateful for what is good in my life when there is this huge problem that I face every single day of my life.

I just discovered this site a few days ago after a disgusting binge. As I read through some of your blogs, I noticed that I've felt a lot like some of you have, and it's nice to know that there are those who have been where I have been and are able to share their story with those of us who are struggling.


"You can do it. Don't ever give up. I'm glad that you said that you had a lot to be thankful for. Because we all do. And sometimes we feel so hopeless that we don't see it but there is beauty all around us. Keep finding it. And I hope that you find the strength to overcome anything that is in your way to happiness."
posted at 02:17:53 on December 27, 2011 by Iamstrong
Glad you found this site    
"I too am fairly new to this site, but am not new to the addiction or the recovery process.

I know exactly how you feel, because I have felt the same way in my life. I have been at the same place you are, but there is hope. Please don't ever give up. Your new friends on this site won't give up on you, and the Savior won't give up on you either.

What steps have you taken other than talking to your Bishop? I would highly recommend that you join your local addiction recovery program. The techniques and support you will learn there will set you on the road to recovery. It will not be an easy process, but you will have the hope that you seem to be missing now.

About 4 years ago I hit bottom, and through support of my wife, church leaders, and a recovery program have learned to identify triggers in my life and techniques to avoid setting off those triggers. I have not been perfect since then, it is still a struggle, but my stumbles have been fewer and farther in between. I have hope that I will be able to be completely free for the rest of my life soon.

If there is no LDS ARP in you area, I have also completed the online Candeo program. It is a private program and costs about $50 month, but it was some of the best money I ever spent.

We are all behind you. Don't ever give up. Keep posting on your progress.

posted at 10:22:01 on December 27, 2011 by ilmw

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