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My attempts of letting go of pride
By projectgiraffe
11/30/2006 1:24:18 PM
Step 1 - Action Step — Let go of pride and seek humility
So it is one of the first steps of the twelve to let go of pride and to seek humility. I stated to my wife my other night that I dont think I can understand what it means to be humble, I as a human being simply cannot comprehend its meaning. However, I know through sincere prayer and fasting the Lord will show unto me my weaknesses and make them strong unto me. I believe I cant become humble becasue I feel as if I am so for away from being humble that I can never see myslef in its shoes. For those of you who have had similar experiences please inform me of them. Share with me how you overcame this step and what you did to except humility in your life.

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Another paradox    
"I kind of commented on this in my reply to your other post, but the concept of paradoxes in the gospel is fascinating to me. Lose your life to find it, the first shall be last and the last shall be first, he who humbles himself as a child is the greatest in the kingdom of God, the meek shall inherit the earth, etc. The gospel is full of them. Humility is a tricky paradox in and of itself. You know the song, "It's hard to be humble...I can't wait to look in the mirror, 'cause I get better lookin' each day...etc." Why is it funny? Because it's a paradox. Obviously someone who thinks they are humble isn't actually very humble at all. You can't ever "arrive" at being humble, for part of being humble is recognizing you need to be MORE humble. You CAN'T ever really see yourself in the shoes of humility. You can't stop one day and see, "Whew, I did it! I finally got humble!" You don't ever "overcome" this step - you just accept that you need it, and you will ALWAYS need it. There is also the paradox of being humble without being self-deprecating. It sometimes seems impossible to be optimistic, confident, and humble all at the same time. I'm still trying to understand that one - I think I always will be.

Getting rid of pride was very important for me (I still have lots to give, which I think is evidenced by my long-windedness!). I had to finally realize that I really couldn't do this on my own, and that wasn't just a catch-phrase. I guess I'm pretty prideful, because it took me a long time to realize that. I was convinced that I was strong enough and had enough willpower to beat it. You'd think after failing time and time again for 15 years or more I would realize that I wasn't.

This seems silly, but for a long time I would pray for the strength to overcome. Deep down I wanted to say, "Heavenly Father, I am willing to do ANYthing to overcome this. Tell me what I must do and I will do it, no matter what." But I couldn't bring myself to say that. I didn't want to fully deal with the consequences. I knew it would mean talking to my wife and hurting her. I didn't like what I knew the answer would be, so I wouldn't ask the question. I guess I figured it was better to not ask than to ask, get an answer, and not follow it. I think if you ever feel that way, it's an indication that your heart is in not in the right place.

At some point I realized that praying for strength was really emphasizing my own strength. In a way I was saying, I don't have enough faith or reliance on the atonement to overcome, so make me stronger so I can do it myself. I still catch myself praying for strength. I try to remind myself to pray instead for humility, to constantly recognize my dependence on the Savior. It reminds me of when Nephi prayed for strength to break the bands that his brothers bound him with. What happened? He didn't get strength to break the bands, they were loosed. I love that story. Who got Nephi out of his bands, Nephi? No, the Lord. Who gets me out of my own self-inflicted bands, me? No, the Lord. He can, and He will. HE will, not me. Obviously I have do everything within my power to overcome, but in the end He will make up the difference and is the one who has the power to actually make it happen.

Sorry for the long-windedness. I guess one man's therapy is another man's boring reading..."
posted at 16:47:45 on November 30, 2006 by josh


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