Slip Sliding away...
By Another_Dad
12/17/2011 2:12:54 PM
Dang, I am so stupid why would I do something that I know is going to cause so much spiritual pain. I guess I am progressing in many ways, I am seeing Bishop every week. I like I get email which has questionable titles. I put all that crap in the spam email area in the past. I've be getting more this week which I was not expecting since I spammed everything. I just had to look... *&^%$#@&^%$#@!*&^%$#@!~!@#$.

I literally only looked for three seconds, but I looked and scanned the email. The adversary got me. I am really struggling to believe in myself and feel unworthy even after seeing Bishop. I have not felt spiritual (personally) for at least six - 12 months. I don't want this weakness any more. I feel unclean and dirty.

Please someone offer me some hope and encouragement.
Thanks in advance.


Jesus loves you    
"And he does not condemn you. He just wants you to try again. He understands that you slipped. He knows us, and he knows our hearts.

It is okay.

Of course, what I mean is not that sin is okay. What I mean is what I think God meant after Adam partook of the fruit and God told him that he would send a Savior, as they had counseled in the beginning. He was telling Adam not that he could allow sin, but that there was a way back.

There is a way back. It is not easy. Every single person on this site will tell you that it is hard. For most of us, this is the most difficult, frustrating challenge we will ever deal with. But we come here to remember (and to remind each other) that Christ still loves us, he believes in our goodness and our desire to follow him, he died to save us and he is happy whenever one of God's children chooses to try again.

Get back up. Don't stay down. Get back up. We're with you. You are not alone."
posted at 14:34:12 on December 17, 2011 by DH
You are also a good person    
"Please see what I wrote to Want2Change on "So many questions". It goes for you, too."
posted at 18:12:36 on December 17, 2011 by beclean
Don't panic, be calm    
"and know that the Lord is God. You are a good person with a bad habit. It's essential that you know that you are a good person, because low self esteem is the foundation of sexual addictions. The unfortunate thing is that the more we act out our addictions, the lower our self esteem goes. Which makes it easier to act out the next time. Etc., etc., etc., in a vicious downward spiral.

You are a prince, a child of God, and someone of infinite worth. Even when you sin. So instead of berating and degrading yourself, why not lift your head up and say that you're a son of God and that you'll do everything in your power to be wiser in the future? And keep getting back up no matter how many times you fall. Keep on trying. You are a good person.

Do you have the LDS Family Services 12-Step Manual? If not, I invite you to get one and start working the steps. Find a support group in your area and start attending and participating in their meetings. And get a sponsor, someone you can trust and who is strong in the Gospel, to work with. You might even find a therapist. And keep working with your Bishop.

Another thing is to get involved in service, both of the organized type (Church service projects, etc.) and also those that you think of yourself (like shoveling the snow off a widow's sidewalk, or visiting people in a nursing home).

Keep the Sabbath Day holy, and be careful of the things that you watch and listen to. There are excellent alternatives to the popular mass entertainment media. May I suggest reading biographies of great figures in history (like the presidents of the Church)? Now's a good time of year to listen to the Tabernacle Choir.

And if your feet touch the ground every once in a while, don't hate yourself for it. Just pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and keep on limping toward the Finish Line.

And keep us posted on how you feel and how you're doing. We're all in the same lifeboat here."
posted at 20:10:09 on December 17, 2011 by dog
Grateful for you love and friendship.    
"It's been over a month since you all responded. It may seem strange that I only read the comments now but may be that was a good thing.

Since I last wrote I have struggled fell got back up again fell got back up again. I can't put into words how I feel except I don't feel spiritual like I have in the past. I go to church each week and see Bishop each week before I go home.

I have changed my life and focus spiritually again..... Well it's better than nothing, I know I could do a lot better. I saw Bishop today and explained how I felt and that I have been consistently tempted it seems like on on hourly basis; but I have said no and enough is enough.

I just finished watching Charley by myself....It's 4:30pm Sunday afternoon and I let the tears
flow and started to feel the love of the Saviour. I know I am doing the right thing but I do not feel anything and I guess that's what I am struggling with. Bishop said if I keep up this effort he will consider allowing me to go to the temple in April."
posted at 23:35:11 on January 21, 2012 by Another_Dad
everything will be ok    
"everyone who is struggling goes through this i have learned.
but i just got some awesome advice that if you mess up today, guess what tomorrow is a different day and you can start anew. i too have struggled recently and thought why have i let myself get to where i was when i hadn't been there in 4 years. but we all make mistakes. were human, none of us were meant to be perfect. ask forgiveness...i know its hard at first trust me. if you need anyone to talk to, i am here. we all have one others backs."
posted at 12:54:04 on January 22, 2012 by churchgirl

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"Now brethren, the time has come for any one of us who is so involved to pull himself out of the mire, to stand above this evil thing, to “look to God and live” (Alma 37:47). We do not have to view salacious magazines. We do not have to read books laden with smut. We do not have to watch television that is beneath wholesome standards. We do not have to rent movies that depict that which is filthy. We do not have to sit at the computer and play with ographic material found on the Internet."

— Gordon B. Hinckley

General Conference, October 2004