By rachp
11/23/2011 6:53:13 PM
So I'm not even sure where to start other than I regret not keeping in
touch. Part of me really struggles when I feel I have disappointed
someone, to keep in contact or even see them.  I know its me I'm
disappointed in.

Life has been all right the past month or so. I have had a few
struggles, but have stopped myself before I went to far. Now I realize
even approaching it is too far.  I know this is the main reason  why I
feel like I have disappointed my bishop myself.....

Each Sunday, I come and listen and hear what my bishop is saying to me. Come meet
with me, I am here to support you, its a privilege to meet with each
of you; Yet I feel I can't take his time to take care of things.

I am reaching out, when everything I hear is saying don't reach out. I
truly want to move forward and do better, yet I seem to stumble and

I am grateful for his words each week that touch my heart and have kept at me to check back in.

Also, just an FYI I have recently been granted temporary guardianship
of my friends son. He will be living with me for the next 6 months or
so. I love him dearly, but it came so unexpectedly. I see it as a blessing in many other ways- such as taking the focus off of me and helping someone else. Please pray for me and him.


Keep going    
"I feel that a lot, and am disappointed in myself as well at times. Something I've heard though, and can't remember which General Authority/Apostle it's from, is that discouragement is from the devil.
He wants you to feel down, and disappointed in yourself, and that you are letting people down, so you can't get help. Keep reaching out, and keep going. You'll make it. And your Bishop is there for you, and he does want to help you. My opinion of you not entirely giving in, is "That's progress." Could you have done that a year ago?

I liked reading your other posts, I'm female as well."
posted at 08:01:10 on November 24, 2011 by anon16

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"Just as the landfill requires dedicated work and attention, laboriously applying layer after layer of fill to reclaim the low-lying ground, our lives also require the same vigilance, continually applying layer after layer of the healing gift of repentance.…Our Father in Heaven and His Son, Jesus Christ, feel sorrow when we choose to remain in sin, when the gift of repentance made possible through the Atonement can clean, reclaim, and sanctify our lives. When we gratefully accept and use this precious gift, we can enjoy the beauty and usefulness of our lives... "

— Shayne M. Bowen

General Conference October 2006