By iamstrong
10/21/2011 2:25:56 AM
So I had my weekly meeting with my Bishop. He is amazing. He doesn't judge me. He just helps me. He asked me what I had been doing to help me overcome this. I told him about how I attend all my church meetings, write in my journal, read the scriptures, go to the temple grounds, and how I'm beginning to actually pray. I was so proud of myself. And then he said "That's all very good. But don't forget to be a young adult. Go out and socialize. Have fun. Life isn't all Sunday School."

And I totally realized that I have been retreating from life. I am still so absorbed in this addiction. I'm letting it take over my life. Only right now I'm not giving in. But it is still taking over my life. Everything I do is about it. Instead of retreating from everything. I need to go out and fill my life with good things. I need to socialize with good friends. I need to serve. I can't make my whole life about this. There is so much more to me.

I'm still taking a break from dating though. It's hard to not fall back into the addiction when I'm with a guy. Because I've found that guys are generally the ones that will go further and they don't even realize the effect it will have on me. I won't just be hurt emotionally, I'll have fallen into sin again. So until I figure myself out, I'm going to avoid dating.


Allow it to take over your life...recovery, that is.    
"In the early stages of recovery, I think it's important to allow recovery to take over your life. Let your every thought be how you are going to beat this crummy addiction. I remember not wanting my life to be defined by my addiction. The more I tried to block this thought, the harder it was to stay clean. Work the steps all the books..write, share, confess. Remember that recovery is process and not a destination..We are fighting a win-able war. Never surrender."
posted at 12:52:09 on October 22, 2011 by chefdalet
i think....    
"your bishop was right you should socialize and if you don't feel like you can take dating then don't do it, start when you feel your ok but still watch yourself and be careful.I guess when you break your addiction your "life" comes back in a way.Don't ever stop praying and reading scriptures."
posted at 16:03:17 on October 23, 2011 by Teddy

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"As Latter-day Saints, we need not look like the world. We need not entertain like the world. Our personal habits should be different. Our recreation should be different. Our concern for family will be different. As we establish this distinctiveness firmly in our life’s pattern, the blessings of heaven await to assist us."

— Robert D. Hales

"Gifts of the Spirit" Ensign, Feb. 2002