By iamstrong
10/21/2011 2:25:56 AM
So I had my weekly meeting with my Bishop. He is amazing. He doesn't judge me. He just helps me. He asked me what I had been doing to help me overcome this. I told him about how I attend all my church meetings, write in my journal, read the scriptures, go to the temple grounds, and how I'm beginning to actually pray. I was so proud of myself. And then he said "That's all very good. But don't forget to be a young adult. Go out and socialize. Have fun. Life isn't all Sunday School."

And I totally realized that I have been retreating from life. I am still so absorbed in this addiction. I'm letting it take over my life. Only right now I'm not giving in. But it is still taking over my life. Everything I do is about it. Instead of retreating from everything. I need to go out and fill my life with good things. I need to socialize with good friends. I need to serve. I can't make my whole life about this. There is so much more to me.

I'm still taking a break from dating though. It's hard to not fall back into the addiction when I'm with a guy. Because I've found that guys are generally the ones that will go further and they don't even realize the effect it will have on me. I won't just be hurt emotionally, I'll have fallen into sin again. So until I figure myself out, I'm going to avoid dating.


Allow it to take over your life...recovery, that is.    
"In the early stages of recovery, I think it's important to allow recovery to take over your life. Let your every thought be how you are going to beat this crummy addiction. I remember not wanting my life to be defined by my addiction. The more I tried to block this thought, the harder it was to stay clean. Work the steps all the books..write, share, confess. Remember that recovery is process and not a destination..We are fighting a win-able war. Never surrender."
posted at 12:52:09 on October 22, 2011 by chefdalet
i think....    
"your bishop was right you should socialize and if you don't feel like you can take dating then don't do it, start when you feel your ok but still watch yourself and be careful.I guess when you break your addiction your "life" comes back in a way.Don't ever stop praying and reading scriptures."
posted at 16:03:17 on October 23, 2011 by Teddy

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"If, through our unrighteous choices, we have lost our footing on that path, we must remember the agency we were given, agency we may choose to exercise again. I speak especially to those overcome by the thick darkness of addiction. If you have fallen into destructive, addictive behaviors, you may feel that you are spiritually in a black hole. As with the real black holes in space, it may seem all but impossible for light to penetrate to where you are. How do you escape? I testify the only way is through the very agency you exercised so valiantly in your premortal life, the agency that the adversary cannot take away without your yielding it to him. "

— Robert D. Hales

General Conference, April 2006