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Lesser of two evils
By praj
10/4/2011 11:19:02 AM
So I'm on about a every-four-months-I-look-up-porn cycle right now and its getting tiresome. Between those times its actually almost too easy to not do anything bad. I almost don't have to try. Then all of a sudden the temptation comes and I'm pretty much done for. every time. Unfortunately. Usually I tell myself I won't look at porn again ever after I'm satisfied off a couple day binge. Four months later that goes out the window later. I have always masturbated after using porn but I'm wondering if its better to just masturbate at this point when I know i'm going to end up looking at porn again, thereby gettting rid of that urge to look at porn. Nipping it in the bud so-to-speak. Honestly I don't think I've ever masturbated without having looked at porn first. Eventually I want to be free of both of course. I feel like masturbating by itself is less severe than looking at porn since the latter is warned of about 100 times more than the former (by church leaders.) It sounds maybe like a stupid thing to say but I'm at the point where I pretty much somehow get sucked in again and again and I'm looking to try a different approach, more like weaning off rather than cold turkey. anyone tried something similar or have thoughts? I don't mean to sound like a faithless idiot who is thinking sinning is a good idea to possibly avoid other sins, but I'm trying to be a little more realistic than before.

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Either or both will keep you out of the Temple    
"What you need to do is to get to the roots of your trigger(s). The Savior wants you to do this, He wants you to be healed completely, globally and systemically, not just superficially. When you work on the roots of your problems with your Savior, your bishop ( and perhaps the 12-step program, a support group and a sponsor), your porn and mb problem will probably dissipate to zero.

If you do this, you will also notice other aspects of your life improving. What you've been doing up to now is cyclical periods of abstinence, and this is commendable, but what you need to do is get into real recovery.

IMO, some fear or anxiety or some bad (maybe subconcious) memory is overtaking you and compelling you to "medicate yourself" with porn and mb every four months. You need to get to the bottom of this and you probably won't be able to do it alone. It seems to me that if you're going 4 months at a time without being tempted, the addiction is losing its grip. But getting rid of an addiction is like rowing a canoe upstream: if you stop rowing, you go backwards.

Please read Mosiah 5:2 very prayerfully (ask for the same experience, the experience of true conversion wherein the nature of your inner self is changed), because this is where all of us need to be, addicts or not, in order to inherit celestial glory in the next life."
posted at 18:48:28 on October 4, 2011 by Anonymous
willpower trap    
"willpower is just not enough to break the cycle.

You go to make changes and I will tell you most of the time we know what needs to change.
When you don't that is when this site becomes a great tool."
posted at 19:42:20 on October 4, 2011 by ruggaexpat
Get down to basics...    
"Read the posts on this site. Get to a meeting (ARP or PASG) and start working the steps. For me, that meant trying to understand the feelings that started the cycle. Was is (H)unger, (A)nger, (L)onely, (T)ired or (S)tressed. Once I started slowing down to recognize the trigger, it became easier to walk away. For me, the MB was harder to walk away from than the P0rn. You see, I had 35 years of images and videos filed away in my head to recall whenever I couldn't get to a computer. Also read Don Hilton's "He Restoreth My Soul". Keep checking in and let us know how you're doing. This is a win-able war."
posted at 19:48:52 on October 4, 2011 by chefdalet


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