faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things unseen..
By taintedlove
10/2/2011 11:40:15 PM
Im working on faith. Im working on prayer.. i still cant pray. But its a work in progress. I havent had sex since july 23. And my mb has went down from not being able to count on 1 hand how many times a day ive done it... to being able i count on one hand for an entire week.... thats progress for me. I havent dine counseling like i should. But my counselor is in classes now and ger schedule conflicts with mine. But i do like her. So hopefully it works out....

The person i was having sex with.... i ended up having feelings for.... almost to the point that i may have L worded him. But good thing he stopped things before I said anything. That would have been unbearable. It still hurt but i had my feelings in check.

I told the bishops wife some of my struggles. Thats a big thing for me too. She held no judgement. She genuinely L's and doesnt hold things against people. Shes told me she L'd me for the past year... i told her a few months ago that i cant say it back. She said she understood but she was going to remind me that she l's me. A couple of weeks ago I said it back.... It was almost unconsciously and i tried to cat h myself but i didnt. I dont regret it either. Shes more family to me than most of my family is. I hope to have hope and faith and kindness like her. I know she may have her faults, but she is good and mindful!

Ive had my ups and downs. Right now is an up. And hopefully it stays thay way.

Keep me in your prayers guys. Lots of the L word


(((HUGS and PRAYERS)))    
"Sarah - You are cared about by people that know you face to face, and others that don't. You are fully loved by Heavenly Father - no matter what, he loves us! It's hard to receive that though - but it's deserved - love is eternal in nature in so many ways. :)

CONGRATS on your progress. It is great! I'm glad you are giving yourself a high-five. ;-)"
posted at 12:13:41 on October 3, 2011 by confidence
"Thank you for your update. So glad to hear you are making amazing progress. We will remember you Sarah and pray for you....

Love and Payers your way,"
posted at 16:59:06 on October 3, 2011 by Hero

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"Each one who resolves to climb that steep road to recovery must gird up for the fight of a lifetime. But a lifetime is a prize well worth the price. This challenge uniquely involves the will, and the will can prevail. Healing doesn’t come after the first dose of any medicine. So the prescription must be followed firmly, bearing in mind that it often takes as long to recover as it did to become ill. But if made consistently and persistently, correct choices can cure. "

— Russell M. Nelson

General Conference, October 1988