weak weak weak but still fighting
By mike81
8/31/2011 12:14:46 PM

I wanted to write, I Was feeling again not very well, I Was able to have 4 days of sobriety but again today, I Was not able to keep my boundaries, I did not call anyone, I know it is not so good, but I will try my best tonight and tomorrow,

I don't know sometime I know what to do but I'm still doing this, since I had the relapse, it is more difficult but I'm still working on it, attending and working my step but because I was traveling the last 2 days I did only write in my journal I Did not work on my step and did not read and of course I was maybe aways from the lord those 2 days, I feel how I'm powerless and the worse or the good is I know what to do and what I need to do.

I think one of my issue is not only setting boundaries and keeping them as well, I know I have to trust and more talking and connecting with my lord.
And of course there is so much I need to discover from my past that are still hidden, and I cannot repair only the lord can take away.

I guess I have to be patient with my self but the only positive things is that , I don't have a shame after my slip today although is a break from my path recovery.

thanks for your understanding.


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"I have come to know that thoughts, like water, will stay on course if we make a place for them to go. Otherwise, our thoughts follow the course of least resistance, always seeking the lower levels. Probably the greatest challenge and the most difficult thing you will face in mortal life is to learn to control your thoughts. In the Bible it says, as a man ‘thinketh in his heart, so is he’ (Prov. 23:7). One who can control his thoughts has conquered himself. As you learn to control your thoughts, you can overcome habits, even degrading personal habits. You can gain courage, conquer fear, and have a happy life. "

— Boyd K. Packer

BYU, Speeches of the Year, 26 Sept. 1967