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Too good to be true?!
By faith21
8/17/2011 3:53:19 AM
There is much to this blog but I simply am overwhelmed emotionally and am drained. So I will sum it up and maybe can come back later for details.

Seperated from my husband. Hardest thing ever (even though I have such a love/hate relationship with him) I felt so good about the inspiration I had when I made the decision. Ok so this in and of itself is hard but heres the kicker:

He says hes had a change of heart. I got the whole 9 yeards of the bleeding heart routine. I have so many mixed emotions over this. And he agreed to therapy and SA classes- that is a first ever for him.

Now you have to remember that he and I have talked seperation on and off at least twice a year since we were married over 10 years ago. With his mental illness and his SA I never know what is going on. And he promises everytime that things will change and he'll be better with being a dad, priesthood holder, husband etc.

I would love for that to happen. He says I base things off the past too much. Not exactly like we have this amazing trust/communication history that would put logic behind his words. But still is it so wrong to just want it to happen? As I sat in church on Sunday I was so heartbroken to look at my little family and think that the eternal marriage was over and I was dreading all that divorce entailed.

So confusing. And I tried to talk to my bishop and ask him to pray about it with me. He told me he is a big believer in self revelation.

Whats a girl to do?

Comments:

Dearest Faith21    
"I am so sorry! Faith 21 we have very similar situations I will pray for you and your children daily that you will have the strength to make it. You sound like an incredibly strong woman. I wish I could give you a hug and we could sit and cry together and be each others strength."
posted at 09:38:13 on August 17, 2011 by momof5
Faith21    
"Great news! Setting boundaries! You are not going to live like your past! You are going to have a future. Your past will not be your future ! It is good to have a plan in separation........going to therapy for self and couple, both attending recovery groups. Make your plan with the help of the Lord and then trust in His will for you. Set a time frame for seeing changes by his behavior and actions, not his words.

Remember you are a daughter of God, you deserve to be treated and loved as a daughter of God. Your children deserve a home that is safe, emotionally, spiritually, and physically,

Pray for the courage to do what the Lord would have you do. Many addicts will nor change until their life as an addict becomes uncomfortable.

Love and prayers to you Faith!"
posted at 12:06:06 on August 17, 2011 by Hero
70 Times 7    
"This is the first post of yours that I have read, but I am amazed with your strength. There is nothing wrong with wanting it to end. I don't know enough about the situation, but I feel that if my wife drew the line like that it would be very very difficult. It would force me to make some hard decisions.

I think of the Savior's words. When asked how many times we are to forgive, he said "70 times 7." It is so hard to forgive someone and give them another chance when they have given us every reason not to. Take as long as you need to to let him back in, but you can be a bigger blessing in his life than you know. I can't tell you what to do, but the Lord can. It's not easy, but it's possible."
posted at 18:46:56 on August 21, 2011 by Braingeek


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