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Remorse.....
By urbnoutdrzmn
8/12/2011 10:20:00 AM
Remorse feeling today..We have Covenant Eyes on our computers..This is a great filter and is not free it is I believe $8.00 a month..

Anyways, last Friday I was looking at things I know I shouldnt have been looking at. well, later that day I found this website and I have been spending time on here when I feel tempted or just needing a boost.

well getting back to the filter, every Friday it sends out a report to the guardian of the filter..and I know it was going to show what I was looking at. There is nothing you can do that it wont show what is going on. My wife woke up and came down stairs and asked me if I had an explanation...I told I slipped..now this is where I felt the worst..I know what I did wrong and she knows it. However, I should of came to her when it happened and explained what happened and how I felt.

This is where US (addicts) need to have communication with our loved ones. I know I am a recovering addict. I know that there are going to tough roads ahead. I know that my Heavenly Father has allowed me to marry a daughter of God that loves me...I know she feels hurt and the trust level is gone..and I am working to rebuild that..however when i make decisions like I did last week..It puts the trust level back to ground zero.

I need to work harder at giving her something to believe in me again. I know for a fact that she sees potential in me..and the man I need to be. I know I can do this. I know that this website is a great tool for me to share my feelings just like everyone else out there that is struggling.

If my wife ever reads this I want you to know I love you and I want to be a eternal family.

Comments:

Honesty is good    
"I know honesty is what I wanted most from my ex. His slip with pornography hurt less than him not telling me about it. Especially after I confessed a slip with masturbation. Just keep trying."
posted at 18:22:00 on August 12, 2011 by dstanley
Pathways to Perfection.    
"Thank You for that wonderful "snapshot in time". Please share with us the exact address of this filter. I use K-9. The one that you describe adds a whole new dimension to accountability.

JUST A FEW THOUGHTS PHRASED AS QUESTIONS.

1. What of the spouse who turns down a calling for any reason?
2. What of the spouse who joins a spurious MLM and doesn't tell his/her spouse?
3. What is to become of a hidden secret where let's say the YW President and the Scout Master are sharing little flirtations on Youth Night?
4. What of the wife who spends a little too much time in "Social Networking" to the neglect of her family?

Just thinking about how comprehensive honesty is and how dishonesty with our spouse and the Lord can sink us all down to hell.

Thanks,
M....."
posted at 19:05:56 on August 13, 2011 by 3R's
Internet filter    
"www.covenanteyes.com"
posted at 19:52:18 on August 13, 2011 by urbnoutdrzmn
3rs    
"Those things you mentioned don't have nearly the destructive consequences of an addiction. Not quite apples to apples."
posted at 20:43:30 on August 13, 2011 by Anonymous


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