Bad day yesterday
By asdfjkl1234
8/10/2011 10:05:07 AM
Yesterday was a long and terrible day. I fell into the vortex of addiction, you know the one that I explain like a hazy cloud that you can not think of anything else but the addiction, and the only way to get out of the haze is to act on the addiction. I acted out yesterday with both addictions. The haze lifted and I looked around and noticed that the sun was out and it was a beautiful day. Before that, I hadn't even paid enough attention that to know that the sun was even up. My wife threatens to leave me and if something doesn't change in the next few days, she's gone. So I had a great talk with my father, then a great talk with the Bishop yesterday and I am feeling better this morning. I am going to be set up to go see a counselor and to start going back to the 12 step meetings. HOPEFULLY this is my turning point to get out of my relapse. I really want to get out of the cycle, and not feel so stuck and drowning.


Your wife    
"needs to understand that if she stays, she is in this for the long haul. It is easy to change in the next few days, but the next few months and years are where the challange is. Please have your wife read from the women on this site because she needs help as much as you do, if not more so. She needs to be in a 12 step for wives to heal from the effects of your addiction.

This is going to be a very long run with many failures and successes. Look to God and live.

I am praying for you and your wife"
posted at 11:11:57 on August 10, 2011 by Anonymous

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"By emulating the Master, who endured temptations but “gave no heed unto them,” we, too, can live in a world filled with temptations “such as [are] common to man”. Of course Jesus noticed the tremendous temptations that came to him, but He did not process and reprocess them. Instead, He rejected them promptly. If we entertain temptations, soon they begin entertaining us! Turning these unwanted lodgers away at the doorstep of the mind is one way of giving “no heed.” Besides, these would-be lodgers are actually barbarians who, if admitted, can be evicted only with great trauma."

— Neal A. Maxwell

General Conference May 1987