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Struggles...
By urbnoutdrzmn
8/8/2011 3:43:21 PM
There is a daily struggle...almost like breathing..OK it is all about breathing everyday. I think it is one of the hardest addictions to overcome. My started when I was a kid and now I am in my forties. Temptations are ever where...movies, T.V. billboards etc. There are times when I wish I was blind then it would be easier..however we then have our imaginations..I know that I can do this..it is a factor of looking for it now..it is the factor of getting the images out of my head. I had an experience a couple of days ago where I was taking a shower and my head was spinning to the point of making me sick. I knew then that my life was out of control. I knew that I needed help, I know things get worse before they get better. I know my wife loves me a lot, however I also know she doesnt like me very much...This addiction robs her of feeling close to me. It robs us of being close as well...I dont want to just think being close to her is just about sex, and groping her..I want her to feel the love that I know I have inside of me for her.

This website is a great tool so that I can write down my feeling and let others know that they are not alone either. We all have skeletons, however together we can fight this and be winners...

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"Develop discipline of self so that, more and more, you do not have to decide and redecide what you will do when you are confronted with the same temptation time and time again. You need only to decide some things once. How great a blessing it is to be free of agonizing over and over again regarding a temptation. "

— Spencer W. Kimball