By urbnoutdrzmn
8/8/2011 3:43:21 PM
There is a daily struggle...almost like breathing..OK it is all about breathing everyday. I think it is one of the hardest addictions to overcome. My started when I was a kid and now I am in my forties. Temptations are ever where...movies, T.V. billboards etc. There are times when I wish I was blind then it would be easier..however we then have our imaginations..I know that I can do is a factor of looking for it is the factor of getting the images out of my head. I had an experience a couple of days ago where I was taking a shower and my head was spinning to the point of making me sick. I knew then that my life was out of control. I knew that I needed help, I know things get worse before they get better. I know my wife loves me a lot, however I also know she doesnt like me very much...This addiction robs her of feeling close to me. It robs us of being close as well...I dont want to just think being close to her is just about sex, and groping her..I want her to feel the love that I know I have inside of me for her.

This website is a great tool so that I can write down my feeling and let others know that they are not alone either. We all have skeletons, however together we can fight this and be winners...


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"The excuse is given that it is hard to avoid, that it is right at our fingertips and there is no escape. Suppose a storm is raging and the winds howl and the snow swirls about you. You find yourself unable to stop it. But you can dress properly and seek shelter, and the storm will have no effect upon you. Likewise, even though the Internet is saturated with material, you do not have to watch it. You can retreat to the shelter of the gospel and its teaching of cleanliness and virtue and purity of life. "

— Gordon B. Hinckley

General Conference, October 2004