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skyteam update
By skyteamst90
7/30/2011 11:01:25 PM
Just an update.I am tired. Its been a long couple of weeks. I have this viral infection. The doc said it wasn't strep, I think they are full of it. I don't have much faith in these doctors now days. I guess I never had a miracle with one.

I have finally gotten rid of the pronto in my place. Got rid of it on the phone, + the few FHM mags. I have yet to get rid of the couple R rated movies I got. Those are going to be easy(er) as I don't watch that much TV as music + guitars are my thing. I made the choice to 'deny myself of all ungodlyness'. Well that's been seriously silly. And watching the changes.

I am filling the void with more kid time + making it about them which seems to be the new pride problem I have, as compulsive behavior makes you so selfish. This is a work in progress. I am getting better, cause I am trying.

My depression has been up because of the flu or what ever I have with my throat. Not fun. I have a measly, shaky, support structure, and makes it difficult to totally find the support sometimes.

So you know, I'm not married, I don't have a girlfriend, I don't have parents, and my siblings don't really talk to me. So I have spent a lot of time alone. I have thought about volunteering somewhere but haven't found something I cope well with.

So, the pressure is on + I pray a lot more then I used to. I'm trying to find this jesus everyone talks about. I have spent a lot of time running away from him and to now try to listen, is well the hardest thing. Exercising faith is defiantly a weak muscle for me.

If I have offended someone or anyone, totally sorry. Not my intent. Sometimes I am hard + cynical, like a crusty old drill sergeant. Not always the right approach, I admit, and I have been less 'chatty' here + just read posts.

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Hang in there    
"It's hard, especially without support. I wish I had some great advice. By the way, you've never offended me. :)"
posted at 13:50:38 on July 31, 2011 by Dstanley
Crusty Old Drill Sergeants    
"They always seem so full of wisdom to me. Been there. Done that. Overcame the impossible. Being a Crusty Old Drill Sergeant is not a bad thing. :)"
posted at 11:48:54 on August 2, 2011 by maddy
thanks for checking in guys    
"@ maddy, ha. funny. i didnt have any crusty ones when i was in the army, but i did have a couple old crusty e7/SFC types i came in contact with...good times...

@DS....thanks, i wondered. :)"
posted at 14:19:41 on August 2, 2011 by skyteamst90


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"I have come to know that thoughts, like water, will stay on course if we make a place for them to go. Otherwise, our thoughts follow the course of least resistance, always seeking the lower levels. Probably the greatest challenge and the most difficult thing you will face in mortal life is to learn to control your thoughts. In the Bible it says, as a man ‘thinketh in his heart, so is he’ (Prov. 23:7). One who can control his thoughts has conquered himself. As you learn to control your thoughts, you can overcome habits, even degrading personal habits. You can gain courage, conquer fear, and have a happy life. "

— Boyd K. Packer

BYU, Speeches of the Year, 26 Sept. 1967