By rachp
7/12/2011 6:28:30 PM
This is an email I sent two weeks ago. I was in such a good spot.

From an article I read

We don’t always know why the Lord allows our specific challenges, or why He doesn’t take them away when we pray sincerely and often. But we can be assured that He is in control and “that all these things shall give [us] experience, and shall be for [our] good” (D&C 122:7).

I’ve lost count of the number of times I’ve petitioned the Lord for relief. What purpose could this serve, I’ve wondered late at night, and what could I possibly hope to learn from this?

The thing I found most helpful was the fact that when the people prayed, the Lord did not immediately free them from their burdens. Instead Hestrengthened them and let them know that He was watching over them, but He did not free them.

I’m slowly accepting that perhaps my lot isn’t to be free. But I know that when I ask for it, the Lord is willing to grant me strength to deal with my problems. And I know that although he doesn’t always remove our burdens, He is always willing to help us carry them.

The past few months, I have felt the strength the Lord has blessed me with. I am not completely free from my challenges. What I have learned is temptations will still be there, but it does not become a sin, until I give in. I choose to turn to Him when temptations are high and when I rely on Him and His power, things turn out for the better. Each day I start with a prayer and ask the Lord for strength and protection, I have been protected. I notice the days when I leave without a prayer, the day is harder.

I am grateful for the past few months, to reflect and to apply the healing power of the atonement. I feel the best thing for me has been attending ARP meetings which have done a couple of things for me. They have lessened the shame of being female and having an addiction. I am humbled each week as I listen and share with others striving for freedom. I gain new insights on how to apply the principles of the atonement in my life and I am encouraged/determined to keep moving forward.

“Healing blessings come in many ways, each suited to our individual needs, as known to Him who loves us best. Sometimes a ‘healing’ cures our illness or lifts our burden. But sometimes we are ‘healed’ by being given strength or understanding or patience to bear the burdens placed upon us.” -Dallin H. Oaks

Its crazy how quickly things change in a week to me wondering if I want to keep fighting. It's been a rough few days. I let stress get the better of me and I give in to viewing pn and now I feel like crap. I've disappointed myself and those around me. I'm not going to give up, but sometimes it feels much easier to give up than to keep fighting.


Strong testimony    
"You have such a strong testimony and a great perspective of submitting to the Lord's will. I know that you said you are struggling right now, but you clearly have the foundation it takes to get through this. Hold on to what you know because you have the weapons you need to fight this thing. Cheering for you!"
posted at 19:10:42 on July 12, 2011 by maddy
Step by step    
"You can do this. Prayers for you!"
posted at 23:42:52 on July 12, 2011 by Confidence1
on my mission....    
"President Jeffrey R. Holland said in a meeting that he was the President of the Strugglers Club.

If Pres Holland is the president, I want to set up a local chapter.

God Loves Strugglers...
I think of how an Earthly Father (or mother) absolutely would do anything if their child were struggling with pain or struggling to figure something out.

I am of the belief that our Heavenly Father is looking for all sorts of ways to help us.. when we struggle...

still struggling :) with how to listen to the Holy Ghost so that I don't struggle needlessly...

honestly... eating a good diet really helped me out with my mood... which helped me realize that I didnt' need to be so addicted to struggling to be happy... because I was at peace with how I FELT.

random thoughts from a random anonymous guy"
posted at 00:14:11 on July 13, 2011 by Anonymous

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"If, through our unrighteous choices, we have lost our footing on that path, we must remember the agency we were given, agency we may choose to exercise again. I speak especially to those overcome by the thick darkness of addiction. If you have fallen into destructive, addictive behaviors, you may feel that you are spiritually in a black hole. As with the real black holes in space, it may seem all but impossible for light to penetrate to where you are. How do you escape? I testify the only way is through the very agency you exercised so valiantly in your premortal life, the agency that the adversary cannot take away without your yielding it to him. "

— Robert D. Hales

General Conference, April 2006