Still in PJs
By Confidence
7/11/2011 4:59:59 PM
I'm having an "off" day. Still in my pajamas and really don't want to do much other than veg. I did get the living room and kitchen decent looking though.

I'm still just so numb. I think my mind/body can't handle all this at once, so everything is being locked deep inside.

I was so mad at myself for not knowing there was more to my husband's porn addiction than he ever told me the "truth" about. I was mad at him for minimizing, and once again, for lying to me that he had a porn problem.

But, now I'm trying to work through that, and am mad at myself that it is sooo hard to do! I feel so un-Christ-like. :(

My kids need a better mom than I'm being since this large disclosure. But, I do know I'm trying. I'm also very quick to apologize if I get snippy.


You are doing great!    
"Be kind to yourself. Be patient with yourself. Remember when we know better we do better. You will learn the most amazing principles and how to apply them as you go through your process of healing. Just keep at it. In the beginning if I made the bed I felt like that was all I could do. Feel all that you need to feel, Say all that you need to say. Then move on to a better you. Stuffing your emotions only leads to more pain and more confusion.

Love and prayers!"
posted at 17:26:26 on July 11, 2011 by Hero

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"[The Savior] is saying to us, "Trust me, learn of me, do what I do. Then, when you walk where I am going," He says, "we can talk about where you are going, and the problems you face and the troubles you have. If you will follow me, I will lead you out of darkness," He promises. "I will give you answers to your prayers. I will give you rest to your souls.""

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General Conference, April 2006