Still in PJs
By Confidence
7/11/2011 4:59:59 PM
I'm having an "off" day. Still in my pajamas and really don't want to do much other than veg. I did get the living room and kitchen decent looking though.

I'm still just so numb. I think my mind/body can't handle all this at once, so everything is being locked deep inside.

I was so mad at myself for not knowing there was more to my husband's porn addiction than he ever told me the "truth" about. I was mad at him for minimizing, and once again, for lying to me that he had a porn problem.

But, now I'm trying to work through that, and am mad at myself that it is sooo hard to do! I feel so un-Christ-like. :(

My kids need a better mom than I'm being since this large disclosure. But, I do know I'm trying. I'm also very quick to apologize if I get snippy.


You are doing great!    
"Be kind to yourself. Be patient with yourself. Remember when we know better we do better. You will learn the most amazing principles and how to apply them as you go through your process of healing. Just keep at it. In the beginning if I made the bed I felt like that was all I could do. Feel all that you need to feel, Say all that you need to say. Then move on to a better you. Stuffing your emotions only leads to more pain and more confusion.

Love and prayers!"
posted at 17:26:26 on July 11, 2011 by Hero

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" Is it possible to reclaim a life that through reckless abandon has become so strewn with garbage that it appears that the person is unforgivable? Or what about the one who is making an honest effort but has fallen back into sin so many times that he feels that there is no possible way to break the seemingly endless pattern? Or what about the person who has changed his life but just can't forgive himself?The Atonement of Jesus Christ is available to each of us. His Atonement is infinite. It applies to everyone, even you. It can clean, reclaim, and sanctify even you. That is what infinite means—total, complete, all, forever. "

— Shayne M. Bowen

General Conference October 2006