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tired wired and its late..... or early
By taintedlove
6/15/2011 2:17:11 AM
Wow..... 3 am. Lots of things are bouncing in my head. Work. School. Church. Life. Im so tired all the time. I want to rest for a while but cant. I want to pray but cant. I want to talk but cant. I want to leave but cant.
I should have no complaints but am full of them.
I should be happy but im weary.
I lack faith.
I lack hope.
I lack
Love
Emotion
Happines
Joy


I feel
Hate
Anger
Disdain
Sadness
Fear
Grief
Abandoment

Im disconnected.
I disconnect on purpse.

Its hard now to hide what i feel.
When i was a teen i could smile and noone knew anything.
I cant smile.
I cant hardly cry.
When i do it doesnt help.
Im numb.

Comments:

Sorry    
"I can totally relate. I wish I had some great advice, but I'm still trying to figure it out too. It's hard....it's really hard, and a lot of people don't understand that which makes it even harder. Hang in! There are better times. I've experienced better times (course now I'm back to what you describe above)."
posted at 02:37:09 on June 15, 2011 by dstanley


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"I have come to know that thoughts, like water, will stay on course if we make a place for them to go. Otherwise, our thoughts follow the course of least resistance, always seeking the lower levels. Probably the greatest challenge and the most difficult thing you will face in mortal life is to learn to control your thoughts. In the Bible it says, as a man ‘thinketh in his heart, so is he’ (Prov. 23:7). One who can control his thoughts has conquered himself. As you learn to control your thoughts, you can overcome habits, even degrading personal habits. You can gain courage, conquer fear, and have a happy life. "

— Boyd K. Packer

BYU, Speeches of the Year, 26 Sept. 1967