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tired wired and its late..... or early
By taintedlove
6/15/2011 2:17:11 AM
Wow..... 3 am. Lots of things are bouncing in my head. Work. School. Church. Life. Im so tired all the time. I want to rest for a while but cant. I want to pray but cant. I want to talk but cant. I want to leave but cant.
I should have no complaints but am full of them.
I should be happy but im weary.
I lack faith.
I lack hope.
I lack
Love
Emotion
Happines
Joy


I feel
Hate
Anger
Disdain
Sadness
Fear
Grief
Abandoment

Im disconnected.
I disconnect on purpse.

Its hard now to hide what i feel.
When i was a teen i could smile and noone knew anything.
I cant smile.
I cant hardly cry.
When i do it doesnt help.
Im numb.

Comments:

Sorry    
"I can totally relate. I wish I had some great advice, but I'm still trying to figure it out too. It's hard....it's really hard, and a lot of people don't understand that which makes it even harder. Hang in! There are better times. I've experienced better times (course now I'm back to what you describe above)."
posted at 02:37:09 on June 15, 2011 by dstanley


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"Lucifer will do all in his power to keep you captive. You are familiar with his strategy. He whispers: “No one will ever know.” “Just one more time.” “You can’t change; you have tried before and failed.” “It’s too late; you’ve gone too far.” Don’t let him discourage you. When you take the path that climbs, that harder path of the Savior, there are rewards along the way. When you do something right, when you resist temptation, when you meet a goal, you will feel very good about it. It is a very different kind of feeling than you have when you violate commandments—an altogether different feeling. It brings a measure of peace and comfort and provides encouragement to press on. "

— Richard G. Scott

General Conference May 1990