Talked out...
By sophie
8/31/2006 12:00:00 AM
On Rufus' blog, he mentioned feeling talked out sometimes.

You may have noticed that I will post several posts and then go awhile without posting anything. That's why. I talk about it with Te. I talk about it with my sisters-in-law. I talk about it on my blog. Sometimes I just want to not talk about it, so I take breaks. Thanks for sticking with me even when I don't post regularly. I appreciate everyone's support. It is amazing to me that there are other people in my same situation who have started blogs recently. It's nice to have this extra support group. I feel like you are all good friends that I have known for a long time, instead of strangers on the internet.

I've been worried about Te since school started. He's been so busy and sleep deprived that we haven't had a chance to talk much. We have been reading the scriptures together every day though, and praying together most every day. On the days we miss, I call him and ask him if he said his own prayer, and tell him that I did too.

Last night we were able to talk for a little while and I told him that I didn't know if I could handle him lying to me anymore. Between being hormonal and pregnant, not feeling well, and not getting enough sleep, I just feel like I'm at a breaking point. I told him if he had anything he needed to tell me, to please tell me now, because I can't handle being lied to right now.

He looked at me with a sweet smile, and said that he had nothing to hide from me. A wave of relief rushed through me. I believe him. He's been busy, and stressed, but he really wants to overcome his addiction. I want to get to a point where I don't doubt him so much. I guess it will just take time. And constant repeating of "trust in the lord..." I say that a lot to myself.

He is such a good man. We just had our 7th anniversary, and I am so glad to have my life with him. He is my best friend. He puts up with an amazing amount from me, for which I am grateful. :)

I love you Te.


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