I think I am finding a voice
By maddy
5/28/2011 7:17:08 AM
I wrote all day yesterday. I didn't know I could find so much peace in writing. I took my kids to friends/ babysitters and wrote for about 14 hours straight. Oh my goodness it felt good. It was terrifying some of the things that came out. Boy am I messed up! LOL But I could see things when I wrote them down that I've never been able to see before. There they were...looking back at me.

I posted my background on here in detail, but quickly removed it. I am not sure if I am ready for that. Or if it is right to make it public. Most of all I don't think it is totally necessary to make it public...not right now anyway. I think I might mail it to my therapist though. I feel like I want someone who is on the 'outside' to read it.

I need to read over these 12 steps. I think I need to go to ARP meetings. But my husband goes to the local meetings and I feel like that is 'his space'. I feel like I need to find space of my own. Right now, this is my safe space with out him. I think I'll need more later. But for today, it helps.


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"In a decaying environment, the mind is the last redoubt of righteousness, and it must be preserved even amid bombardment by evil stimuli. Christ is competent to see us through, “for in that he himself hath suffered being tempted, he is able to succour them that are tempted” As promised, He will make either “a way to escape” or a way “to bear it”."

— Neal A. Maxwell

General Conference May 1987