I think I am finding a voice
By maddy
5/28/2011 7:17:08 AM
I wrote all day yesterday. I didn't know I could find so much peace in writing. I took my kids to friends/ babysitters and wrote for about 14 hours straight. Oh my goodness it felt good. It was terrifying some of the things that came out. Boy am I messed up! LOL But I could see things when I wrote them down that I've never been able to see before. There they were...looking back at me.

I posted my background on here in detail, but quickly removed it. I am not sure if I am ready for that. Or if it is right to make it public. Most of all I don't think it is totally necessary to make it public...not right now anyway. I think I might mail it to my therapist though. I feel like I want someone who is on the 'outside' to read it.

I need to read over these 12 steps. I think I need to go to ARP meetings. But my husband goes to the local meetings and I feel like that is 'his space'. I feel like I need to find space of my own. Right now, this is my safe space with out him. I think I'll need more later. But for today, it helps.


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