i need to tell!
By taintedlove
5/26/2011 11:32:53 PM
I was in arp today. The topic about children being molested came up. It took all off me not to walk out. I felt sick to my stomach.

We were on the step for reconciliation. In the middle of the discussion one of the arp leaders asked me if i was ok and asked if ive done any reconciliation.

I talked about my mom and some other things. But i didnt talk about the guy who could be my sperm donor (im tired of saying dad or father). Ive talked about what happened to a couple of people... but i wasnt listened to i feel. Yeah the people felt bad but it was a whatever situation to them.

Its killing me inside to have all this. I wanted to talk with bishop but couldnt bear the call or text right away. So I text him and told him I needed to talk with him. We'll see if I go through with it. Its hard for me to trust people that I see alot. But i will try.


Little by Little, here a little, there a little.    
"your courage.. gives me courage.. to keep trying little by little. thanks again for sharing

whatever church you are a part of.. I want to be a part of... people who are trying.. people who are changing... people who have hope.. people who cry... people who get angry... people who aren't perfect, but who are progressing towards the light!"
posted at 23:46:33 on May 26, 2011 by gracefull
"Sometimes it feels like we are choking on our own painful history and we can't breathe and so of course we can't talk about it. But if you can tell the right person, I believe it will help. I just spent a long time writing down the details of my own abuse from my father. I know I'll want to tell someone someday all the truth, but right now it was just so painfully liberating to get it onto paper. Courage as you take this huge step. I am right there with you..."
posted at 14:53:47 on May 28, 2011 by maddy

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