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A new life
By lawrence
5/5/2011 9:55:54 AM
About a year ago, my bishop gave me the most wonderful priesthood blessing, and one thing he blessed me with (that I wrote down in my journal) came to pass with a powerful feeling of finality. I just didn't have enough faith to let Him heal me in an immediate way, but now after 15 months, I have received the blessing that all addicts hope for. He has blessed my body so I no longer have the desire for my addictive behaviors. I'm so glad I wrote it down and that it has been working in me for all this time. There was a story where the person said if we don't write down what is said in the priesthood blessings we receive, we can't participate in its fulfillment because we won't remember what is said. “Participate in fulfillment” is something I learned firsthand, I promise you. I am far from perfect, but another great blessing I received is since God accepts me and loves me as I am, I also accept my own imperfections, but still have the divine motivation to clear things up with repentance on a daily (hourly) (minutely) basis. In some ways, I feel like it came all of a sudden, and when I look at the reality of it, It was over a year in the making, and He helped me to grow so much over the past year. I just received "suddenly" very sacred communication and confirmations to my soul yesterday. I testify to you all the Christ is with us all personally every day, always, and never forsakes us. He walks with me always and only recently have I come to know Him in this powerful of a way. I was in a hurry this morning and skipped breakfast, thinking I might grab something at work, but now I feel like I am in a mini (rejoicing) fast. It seems I am always "needing" something from the Lord, but today I just want to rejoice in gratitude.

I'm Loren and I am 21 days completely 100% sober from lust.

Comments:

Be careful    
"Lust will return. There will be challanges. It must be this way to keep us humbleThe Lord will keep you on this path if you stay on your daily walk with Him. Let it slide for one second and Satan smiles.

I am very happy that you are healed and wish you success in staying on the path to follow the Lord. We do not have to suffer with lust if we continue our walk with him. That is his plan.

Don't ever think that you are okay because that is when you will get stung.

Congratulations brother Loren"
posted at 16:06:05 on May 5, 2011 by Anonymous
Congratulations!    
"I am happy for you, Loren. I look forward to the day that I can feel that same love and peace. Do be on your guard, but rejoice in this wonderful victory. Blessings to you for continue success!"
posted at 17:01:37 on May 5, 2011 by want2change
Be careful    
"Lust will return. There will be challanges. It must be this way to keep us humbleThe Lord will keep you on this path if you stay on your daily walk with Him. Let it slide for one second and Satan smiles.

I am very happy that you are healed and wish you success in staying on the path to follow the Lord. We do not have to suffer with lust if we continue our walk with him. That is his plan.

Don't ever think that you are okay because that is when you will get stung.

Congratulations brother Loren"
posted at 17:56:10 on May 5, 2011 by Anonymous
Congrats!    
"I am happy for you. I have to agree though, don't get over confident and let your guard down. That's what got me after 8 months of sobriety. Something blindsided me."
posted at 22:44:48 on May 8, 2011 by dstanley
I agree    
"Of course my guard will never go down. Jesus is taking the wheel for me. I understand everyone's trepidation, but let's not be naysayers. Part of doing something is believing it can be done; that is what faith is. I feel lust trying to return, but my higher self is in charge now, calling the shots. My addict self is very present still and I have the ability to let him be in charge, but I simply will not do that.

I am a son of God and I used to use pornography, but now I never do. I used to masturbate, but now I never do. I used to entertain lustful thoughts, but now I never do. No matter how small the problem at hand seems to be, my confidence in being able to do it by myself is nil; I always give it to the Savior. His arms of love are round about me. He is on my right hand and on my left hand. His holy angels are all around, bearing me up.

I have said all of this in the first person (using "I" words) but it is also true for you. Repeat the words of the previous paragraph aloud, all of you who read it. Let it be your new mantra, your daily and hourly affirmation of the infinite worth of your very soul. I love you. The Savior and the Father love you.

I'm Loren and I am 27 days free from lust."
posted at 11:30:13 on May 11, 2011 by lawrence
Good for you    
"Keep honesty in your heart, repent from all sin. Even the little and especially the embarassing sins that hurt othbers. Keep cleansing the inner self. Keep giving all of it to God and you will stay on the path.

What step are you in in your process? Sounds like you are doing great. Congrats bro."
posted at 14:35:01 on May 11, 2011 by Anonymous
birthday    
"Today is my 40 day sobriety birthday. I am still working it.

The change comes from within. I let Christ into my heart. The single best thing I ever did in my recovery is go to my first 12 step meeting. It doesn't matter if you use when you go. You will find love. They say about meetings, "First I came, THEN I came to, then I came to believe." The steps lead to Christ. Step zero is attend meetings.

I have filters, but I am an IT pro (a very good one), and I can get around anything. ANY-THING! And I DO NOT look at porn at all. Today is my 40 day sobriety birthday, and I have been almost completely abstinent (with little relapses here and there) for 474 days. I don't think I will ever be in a situation in the future wherein I will compromise my new values. They say in 12 step groups that if you have the tiniest inkling of a faint thought that maybe someday you might go back to your addiction, even just once, then by golly YOU WILL. I needed to decide deep within my soul that I am completely done with this, and I give my entire life, my soul, my very agency to God, my higher power. That decision was not a superfluous choice by any means. It was the single most powerful decision I have ever made in my life, and it took me 14 months to come to that complete resolve.

Have a blessed, sober day today. Just today.

Loren"
posted at 11:22:46 on May 24, 2011 by lawrence


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