satans 3 tools
By kaybee
5/1/2011 12:26:32 AM
i just got home from work. long day. everyone else at home is asleep. i walked into my room and felt an urge to toss my 17 days of sobriety down the drain and i immediatly though "what? no way!" but right after that i thought, geez, satan alway uses 3 things to get me to turn to sin: 1. shame: i get a few days under my belt, start to feel good, and then i think about what i have done and how its stunting my progress (ie mission) so i feel so bad that i look at p~orn and i MB. 2. lonelyness: i deal with lonelyness nearly everyday. i have a lot of time spent alone, but im trying to minamize that. tonight, i walked into my room, wanted to talk to my ex (we used to talk everynight about that time) but i knew i couldnt and i was engulfed by lonelyness. 3. habit: sometimes, for no reason at all, i will want to MB or watch po~n. cant explain it as anything other than habit.

just felt like this was a growing experience and a moment of mental and spiritual clarity in which i was given some insight. thought it might also be helpful to others sorting out why they do what we do.


"It is good to learn and understand what things bring you to act out. It makes it easier to recognize what's happening and do something different."
posted at 00:44:17 on May 1, 2011 by dstanley

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