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Day 2
By adrastos
4/14/2011 11:01:04 AM
I'm going to keep this short and sweet.

I'm still doing good, but I was starting to struggle last night. Starting to pull up pictures of girls in bikinis and such, a good gate way into looking at more hard core stuff. But I stopped.

When I'm really trying to stop, I mean really trying, I get depressed, I don't know why. Not sure if Satan is trying to hit me with a last resort effort to drag me back in. I was feeling that yesterday. Evenings are rough on me emotionally at times. I got through it, and this morning I kept my smart phone away from me when I did my morning routine. (I've been using the smart phone for good the last todays, listening to conference talks and listening to the book of mormon).

At anyrate, I got through a whole day, not completely away from lust, but mb free and p*** free. For some reason, knowing I'm going to report to y'all is helping me. You don't have the same emotional environment as my wife, and the guilt/shame factor isn't there as it is with my Bishop.

I know I need to talk to them as well, and I will, but this is a good avenue for me.

Thanks for letting me share.

Comments:

this is just like me    
"first it usually starts by looking at girls with bikinis then i sometimes stop but sometimes i dont and go farther,i also feel depressed when i stop i think it is the devil trying to make me fall.I think you should talk to them as fast as you can but you are right you are doing very well!"
posted at 15:42:34 on April 15, 2011 by teddy
Girls in Bikinis    
"I use to think this was ok. Huge pitfall for us though. As soon as I realize that I was just looking at their bodies...I realized that I had to stop. I use to justify that there was no nudity, so it wasn't bad. No more for me...I need to feel good looking at it w/ my wife or I can't look at it at all. If I'm w/ my wife, I won't have bad thoughts and I can keep it together. Great job on recognizing this pitfall."
posted at 16:09:24 on April 16, 2011 by jdean88
Depression    
"It can be depressing when first giving up an addiction. I know I was. I'd had my addiction to "help" me through things for a while. It was scary to think of life without it. Being 4 years into recovery and back to 1 month sober, I can say that it does get better. I've seen how good sobriety is. I've seen that I can get past things without acting out. I've been happier than I've ever been before. Hang in there. It gets better."
posted at 17:05:14 on April 19, 2011 by dstanley


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