Struggling to make the right choice
By dstanley
3/31/2011 10:52:21 PM
I'm having a hard time. My urges were super high yesterday. By some miracle I made it through yesterday. Now I'm struggling again today. I really want to get online on an adult chat site. I met with one of my counselors and we talked about it. I made a Pros and Cons list. That helped me see that logically the best decision is to not act out, but I'm having a really hard time letting go of what I "want" to do. I've been praying, but I'm still not totally committed to staying sober tonight. I told my friend I wish I could get on the chat site and not feel bad about it afterwards. I'm scared that I'm going to slip.


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"it seems to me that one of ur biggest struggles is the internet and late hours so make urslef a rule no internet after a certain hour...I made a rule not to watch certain sitcoms on tv as some fo the actresses on those dressed pretty provactive and now I am having an easier time with my is not over yet but I have lessen the images and other media thru this one thing
posted at 00:16:54 on April 1, 2011 by Anonymous
"I made it to day 14! I didn't chat last night. I didn't act out at all (didn't even push the lines). I'll have to think about not using the internet after a certain hour, although my biggest risk of doing something online is anytime after the kids are in bed which is also my only time to use the internet at home during the week. I do have Covenant Eyes on my computers, so if I do anything I shouldn't, my bishop and home teacher are going to know. That usually puts a pretty big damper on my plans. My biggest struggle lately has just been mb. It's been a while since I've really wanted to chat, at least like I wanted to the last couple nights. I've really been struggling with being single lately, and I guess somehow cybersex fills that (or attempts to) in some way. There are definitely shows I don't watch anymore either. I'm feeling much better this morning. The urges are way down. I'm a little hesitant, but I'm excited. I made it through 2 days of really high urges, and now can see that they really do go away. God is so amazing. I know with every fiber of my being that there is no way I stayed sober on my own. Even though I never got to the point of being 100% committed to staying sober last night, I kept praying that He would help me get there, and He did. He worked with the willingness and desire I did have. Sobriety is possible. We can all do this."
posted at 09:33:18 on April 1, 2011 by dstanley

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