need help im falling again!!
By Teddy
3/30/2011 9:02:37 PM
I'm falling more and more lately i thought confessing was hard this is even harder i fell today and the day before that and on and on and i feel really really bad.My bishop hasn't talked to me in his office since i confessed nor has he put up a meeting for counseling :(.I thought things would be better that sure it would be hard but not this hard i fear i'm going back to my old days.Although i keep falling i always try again and again i'll never give up i always do my prayers at night and ask for strength and i can feel god trying to pull me away from temptations but i just give in.So i need your guys help just to talk to me through my days to encourage me and help me get through them.This blog helps me a lot i'm glad i found it i need tips of what to do what good scriptures to read etc.

thank you....lets hope to make it 1 day.


Don't Be Discouraged    
"Don't give up. You are only 15. Do you have a friend you can hang out with? Do something outdoors? Try to get your mind off it."
posted at 21:20:50 on March 30, 2011 by Anonymous
Good Music    
"I think you genuinely want to change and the Lord wants to help you. Hang in there."
posted at 22:18:53 on March 30, 2011 by Anonymous
Good Music    
"I forgot to mention this song I heard recently. I think it could give you some encouragement "Let Him Heal Your Heart" by John Canaan."
posted at 22:20:45 on March 30, 2011 by Anonymous
"There is some good stuff there.

He uses it as a periodic check in and tool to measure his progress and seek advice.
Join us there with your thoughts."
posted at 09:40:46 on March 31, 2011 by ruggaexpat
I admire you    
"all of us have been where you are... 15 years old and struggling with this..
most of us (I would say) would not have the GUTS to do what you are doing.

you are amazing.. you're reaching out.. you're asking the bishop for help.. you're praying..

If I'm GOD... I would be smiling from ear to ear.
Whoever made up the lie that God hates people because they sin... is a LIAR.

close your eyes and imagine yourself as a Father.. imagine your wife gave birth to a son... a beautiful baby boy... then he slowly grew up.. and you saw him grow up throughout that entire period of time... you saw his strengths and his weaknesses... you saw how hard he tried.... Then imagine him coming to YOU one day for advice.

Father - I need help with this.. I don't know what to do...

What would you say to your son?

write that down.

then think... God would love your son that much more.. as a heavenly father.

I think about this a lot... and typically shed a few tears.. thinking how much love I would have for someone who is genuinely struggling and genuinely wants help.

you are an INTERGENERATIONAL HERO... I suspect that as the years go by.. you will learn that you are not just fixing your own life... but you are stopping patterns that have existed throughout generations... and that future generations will be BLESSED for your courageous actions right now... "
posted at 21:38:35 on March 31, 2011 by gracefull
"@Anonymous i heard the song great song i listened to it right before i went to sleep made my whole day better thinks for showing it to me.

@GRACEFULL thank you for your kind words you make me want to keep on progressing for a greater future."
posted at 22:49:15 on April 1, 2011 by Teddy
Keep Hanging In    
"You can do this. You are lucky to be dealing with this before it has a chance to impact a marriage and kids. What helped me with my last big struggle was making a list of pros and cons of acting out. It helped me get out of running on emotion and into something more rational. I still wasn't ready to give up the acting out I wanted to do, but it got me to a point where I could pray for help to want to stay sober more than acting out. I got through it and I feel absolutely amazing today. As far as scriptures to read, I like the ones about having a particle of faith and letting it grow (Alma 32 I think). Also, are you going to ARP. I find that really helps me too."
posted at 23:34:06 on April 1, 2011 by dstanley
"I am glad you liked the song. "
posted at 01:58:15 on April 2, 2011 by matt78
"@DSTANLEY what is ARP?"
posted at 18:08:34 on April 2, 2011 by Teddy
What is ARP?    
"ARP is Addiction Recovery Program. This is the program that has been set up by the church to address issues with its members who struggle with addiction. The recovery manual on the left of this screen is for that meeting. Download it and start reading. It is structured after the 12 steps but this program is basically the Atonement in Action Award Program. (my own terminology) You can find these meetings by going to the church website, or by clicking on the, link, tab above. Then go to the Family Services website. Under Learn more: Click on Find a Recovery group. It will help you find a group in your area. You can also download the manual or even an audio version.
There are special groups in some areas that deal specifically with Pornography Addiction. These meetings are PASG, for those who are struggling with Porn. Addiction. PASGS, for the spouses or loved ones of those who suffer with addiction to Pornography or sex.

In some areas there are meetings just for teens who are struggling.

If you really want to recover from this addiction and get the help you need. All recovery experts advise that you attend a program such as this to achieve success.

Do not worry, it seems scary at first but when you go there, you will feel the love and you will be supported by others who are also struggling with the same issues. You do not have to be alone and when you stop keeping secrets you get well.

You can do this. You deserve this. The Lord wants you to heal. We want you to heal. Keep at it and never give up.

Do not let Satan have your most powerful gift. Your sexuality.... Do not let him....Fight with all your might! Your Heavenly Father and your Saviour Jesus Christ will be there for you. Pray, Pray, Pray!!!!! Pray for angels to protect you.

Love and Prayers."
posted at 20:33:29 on April 2, 2011 by Hero
more questions    
"Is it like a counselor because my bishop said he would give me a meeting with him should i have both or just one?? but like i said for some reason my bishops hasn't set anything up or interviewed me on how i'm doing."
posted at 19:28:28 on April 4, 2011 by Teddy
"Bishops are good for spiritual stuff. Counselors are good for psychological and addiction stuff. If you can find a counselor who is experienced in addiction stuff that is ideal. My bishop was going to set up a meeting during the second hour of church, but it hasn't happened. I should probably follow up with him, but I'm not sure it's as important right now so I haven't. If you want to meet with your bishop, follow up with him or schedule something with him."
posted at 23:47:25 on April 4, 2011 by dstanley
"It is the sinners that Christ has come to save because the already perfected people have no need for a Savior.

Looks like you are in his sight.

When you are honest and aware that you are broken and weak, you are closer to the Father and the Son that you even know. "
posted at 01:29:06 on April 5, 2011 by Anonymous
"Recovery is your responsibility. You took the Huge step of confession. You are very brave and you definitely have a good heart. If you feel the need to talk to your Bishop. Make sure you follow up with him. I am sure he wants to meet with you. They are very busy and sometimes when you have a need you have to let him know. You know the squeaky wheel gets the grease!

Do not be discouraged. Keep fighting! We need you!!!!"
posted at 17:32:47 on April 5, 2011 by hero
Thank you all but I must confess....    
"I have fallen today I feel so hopeless I wish I can tell you better things of how I will try harder but I think you guys have heard enough.I feel so bad I ask myself why do I do this why do i continue to make my self sad.I need you brothers and sisters more then ever I feel weak I know god wants me to do this but why hasn't this gotten easier......uhhh I don't feel good at all I need to talk to my bishop I will I'll ask for a meeting and tell him how I'm doing,better but not good.I made a goal to get on everyday I hope to follow through.If you can write down some songs,quotes,scriptures etc. Well I guess I'm back to day 1."
posted at 20:05:28 on April 6, 2011 by Teddy
Keep Trying    
"I know how you feel. We've all been there. The quicker you can get back up and get going again, the better. Don't be too hard on yourself. You made a mistake. Repent and move on. You'll be OK. Try reading the verse of the day on the home page and the quotes on the right hand side. Those are good. Hang in there! It gets better."
posted at 00:53:54 on April 7, 2011 by dstanley
Good Music    
"We listen to K LOVE radio online and FM radio 107.5. All about God and Christ. Beautiful and uplifting. It is not LDS radio, but it is all about Christ and inspires everyone in our family.

I guess we are all born again when it comes down to it. Isn't that exacly what God wants?"
posted at 01:39:01 on April 7, 2011 by Anonymous
"@DSTANLEY i will everyday, i think that'll help me alot,thanks.

@ANONYMOUS Thanks i'll be sure to listen."
posted at 07:31:45 on April 7, 2011 by teddy

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"I have come to know that thoughts, like water, will stay on course if we make a place for them to go. Otherwise, our thoughts follow the course of least resistance, always seeking the lower levels. Probably the greatest challenge and the most difficult thing you will face in mortal life is to learn to control your thoughts. In the Bible it says, as a man ‘thinketh in his heart, so is he’ (Prov. 23:7). One who can control his thoughts has conquered himself. As you learn to control your thoughts, you can overcome habits, even degrading personal habits. You can gain courage, conquer fear, and have a happy life. "

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BYU, Speeches of the Year, 26 Sept. 1967