By They speak
3/26/2011 2:20:03 AM
I was driving to work today and it dawned on me - I have absolutely no faith. I just admitted it...and it was strangely liberating. This realization has I think evaded me in the past because of the strong feelings I have for God and the Savior. Even in my darkest moments I've always been susceptible and sensitive to the Spirit. I feel it now even as I say that. But that's not faith. Indeed not "faith unto repentance" (yet). I realized in that moment that Lucifer too knew what I know...but he had no faith in the Savior (among other issues)...and he walked away. I think making this distinction was important for me to grow... if I will (Alma 33:23).

Funny i didn't see this sooner. My stake president has postponed my disciplinary counsel because he thinks I don't have the faith to handle one yet..? Honestly I didn't give the concept a lot of consideration even though he's reiterated it several times. Almost like in one ear and out the other...just going with the flow. But now it seems so obvious. I have no faith!


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"You lived with your Heavenly Father in a premortal life. You were there with Him. Your spirit knows what it is like to live in celestial realms. You can never be truly happy in an uncelestial environment. You know too much. That is one of the reasons that for you, wickedness never can be happiness. What a great thing it is to decide once and for all early in life what you will do and what you will not do with regards to honesty, modesty, chastity, the Word of Wisdom, and temple marriage. "

— Larry W. Gibbons

General Conference October 2006