By dstanley
3/13/2011 1:15:18 PM
One of the things I've realized through this last struggle is the importance of prayer. I may not have been able to keep up with scripture study when I was sick, but I could have kept praying. Even if it was just to pray for help staying sober. I think I get caught up in thinking that I have to pray for all the things and people I normally pray for, and forget that sometimes it's OK to just pray for the help that I really need at that moment. Also, if I'm not feeling committed to sobriety, I can pray for help being committed. I can't afford to not pray for my sobriety. Yesterday I prayed to want to stay sober and help staying sober. That's pretty much where I am today too. I'm closer to committed today, but I'm not sure I'm totally there yet. I know sobriety is the only way out of how I'm feeling, it just feels so hard.


Evolution of Prayers    
"My prayers have definitely changed a lot over the past year. I think before I had a hard time praying because I felt I always had to kneel and follow a very set pattern for prayer to be "worthy". I knew informal prayers, or prayers for a single purpose - even when that single purpose helped no one but me - were perfectly acceptable, but it just didn't seem like a real prayer to me.

Over time my prayers started to become much more... honest. I started to let Heavenly Father know, actually explained to him, exactly how I was feeling when I was praying even when what I was feeling wasn't uplifting or "righteous". I figured, there was no need to hide it, He knows it all anyway. I can't explain how liberating and strengthening that was. I really started to feel as though I was communicating with someone who was really listening, and not turning away. No matter how sad, pathetic, or angry my prayers were at the time. He was ALWAYS there for my next prayer.

Again, after some time, the anger started to fade. My open honest prayers started to happen throughout the day. Rather than a formal prayer at morning and night (though they still happened), a prayer consisted of a few quick thoughts and maybe a question posed to Him many times throughout the day. And those informal quick prayers have been answered! I can't explain how much of a difference it makes to avoid temptation when you're having a near constant conversation with Heavenly Father. Not that things have been perfect for me since I started figuring this out... far from it. But they have been so much better.

I wish I had known the power of prayer years ago.

I continue to pray for you D. You have been a strength to me and I know that Heavenly Father cares for your and your two boys and will be there for you as you need him, whenever you need him, no matter what.

-Paul (having trouble logging in)"
posted at 10:17:56 on March 14, 2011 by Anonymous
"I second that motion prayer has helped especially surrending prayers. What I like to do is to acknowledge to God that there is beauty in women but then to say help me focus on the person and not her looks. that usually helps me on my surrendring prayers"
posted at 22:45:45 on March 14, 2011 by Joshua

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"Lucifer will do all in his power to keep you captive. You are familiar with his strategy. He whispers: “No one will ever know.” “Just one more time.” “You can’t change; you have tried before and failed.” “It’s too late; you’ve gone too far.” Don’t let him discourage you. When you take the path that climbs, that harder path of the Savior, there are rewards along the way. When you do something right, when you resist temptation, when you meet a goal, you will feel very good about it. It is a very different kind of feeling than you have when you violate commandments—an altogether different feeling. It brings a measure of peace and comfort and provides encouragement to press on. "

— Richard G. Scott

General Conference May 1990