Candle Sticks
By They Speak
2/17/2011 7:03:41 AM
Things are still going exceptional with my wife and I. Sometimes its kind of overwhelming. I feel undeserving. I feel like Jean Valjean...standing here with these silver candle sticks...


Les Mis    
"I just saw a production of Les Miserables, and I really identified with Valjean a lot. Especially when an innocent man goes to trial and he laments that if he comes forward, he will be condemned and if he doesn't, he will be damned. Back before my major confession, I was thinking if this life was all that mattered, I could take certain information to the grave. I came forward, but don't feel like I was condemned. I feel like I was rescued, even though I was disfellowshipped."
posted at 09:11:30 on February 17, 2011 by lawrence
"I'm glad things are still going well for you and your wife. Enjoy it. You and your wife deserve to be happy together."
posted at 22:30:51 on February 17, 2011 by dstanley
"This morning I expressed to my wife that I was worried (worried isn't really a very good verb but I can't think of a better one. Apprehensive?) that she was dealing with all this so well. It seems to good to be true. Not that she acts like it never happened at all. She's just handling it really well. Its hard too explain. Anyway, so we were talking about it and a sudden little burst of intelligence came to me "Code, she doesn't need to feel horrible to protect herself. She doesn't need to live in abject misery to find impetuous for rational decisions concerning this. She can do it in happiness. All these things can be accomplished in happyness." And I was comforted. I told her what came to me and she concurred and added that she thinks on top of that she is more open to guidance in the state she is in rather then the alternative (which by the way she has experienced some so is not wholly ignorant of what she's rejecting).

So, I'm feeling less overwhelmed. Faithful that the Lord is taking care of my wife. But I still stand here with these candle sticks that she and God have given me - a criminal. All amazed.

Loren, I miss you. I got a job and been missing a lot of meetings. Hopefully we'll catch you soon. That's rad you went to Les Mis. How's the disfellowship thing coming? I just met with our stake president. For me it was nice. I think because I have no fear of the consequences. Hurting my wife was the only consequence I dreaded (not that I'm mr. chivalrous or anything I was just scared as hell). What confidence being honest with her has given me.

D, your the best :)"
posted at 11:53:49 on February 18, 2011 by They Speak
hey man    
"Thanks Codey. Things are going ok for me. I go to 3 meetings a week and LifeStar Phase 1 has one more week. I am 11 days sober today. For the past couple of months, I stayed sober for 2 weeks at the most, but this time I feel very calm and peaceful without the angst of needing to fill my holes with something. I am filling them with a good life, and with Christ. Thanks for the personal note."
posted at 12:35:39 on February 18, 2011 by lawrence
oh that is so good    
"Codey, I am so glad and it makes me so happy. I want to be that father who gives the candlesticks. WOw, what mercy and love, your wife has shown you. That is simply so wonderful."
posted at 10:48:19 on February 21, 2011 by crushed

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"In recent years, as I have sung the hymns of the Atonement, it has been with an especially full heart—and also with full voice, when I can continue to sing—lines such as “How great thou art,” “I scarce can take it in,” “To rescue a soul so rebellious and proud as mine,” “I stand all amazed,” and “Oh, it is wonderful!”"

— Neal A. Maxwell

General Conference May 1987