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the long road
By william
1/22/2011 12:50:25 AM
So it's been a long time since I've felt like myself. I've quit a bunch of times, but never really meant it. Perhaps you know what I mean: I have quit halfheartedly, I've run out, been locked up, wanted to try it out, etc., but never in my heart of hearts did I really want to quit. It was fun. I'm being honest. It was a lot of fun...and it destroyed my life. And now that wreckage is so heavy it makes me afraid of being sober. I don't remember how to function effectively as a sober person. It's easy to be a drug addict. But you're always borrowing from the future, and now the future has arrived and the debt is due. All these dysfunctional, selfish habits I have developed over the years will have to go. That is very daunting. My relationship with drugs is longer than all but one relationship I have made as an adult. Addiction has been my friend sad as that is. It's hard to let go of that relationship. It's always the same. It's predictable and constant when life is not, and it has kept me from dealing with life for a long time. I know it is time for me to grow up and move on and I look forward to the process and will document my progress as I go on. I know how hard it is to do what you all are doing. It is together that we will succeed. I will do for us what I cannot do for myself. Bless you all in your journey. You are in my thoughts and prayers. I will think of you when times get rough as I know they will. This is the first time I've really tried to quit and to be accountable to another person and I think accountability and faith are the keys to success. All the best to you.
-w.

Comments:

Welcome    
"You're right, it's hard to let go of an addiction that has helped you get through life. For me it's such a habit to just handle my stresses and emotions with my addiction. It's hard to learn better ways of coping and put those to use."
posted at 01:04:15 on January 22, 2011 by dstanley
William    
"Make Christ your new best friend. He is truly constant and will never leave you as long as you desire Him.

Pray for protecting angels. You will be in our prayers."
posted at 01:05:30 on January 22, 2011 by Hero
Good work    
"I commend your honesty and applaud your efforts. I know the short-term relief and sanctuary you describe. Drugs can truly act as a comforting companion. They can be a fabulous heat sink when the world overwhelms us. Unfortunately they are a flaxen chord around our necks. At the other end of that rope, Satan slowly and skillfully leads us down to hell. Shake off the shackles of bondage that you have allowed to steal your sovereignty. You may suffer a short while as you abandon your habit, but realize the Lord is with you. He suffered through the same pain and shame you feel now so you could become whole again through his redeeming love."
posted at 01:07:49 on January 22, 2011 by Layne
pedro nunez    
"YOUR ABSOLUTLEY RITE BROTHER, I HAVE ALSO BEEN A SLAVE TO A DRUG FOR THREE AND HALF YEARS, AND IT HAS ALSO TOOKEN ALOT OF MY FREEDOM, BUT OUR FATHER PUT US ON
THIS EARTH TO BE PUT THREW TRIALS TO SO HOW MUCH FAITH WE HAVE IN HIM. ID LIKE TO BARE MY TESAMONY IN DECEMBER 15 2011 I WAS SHOT IN THE HEAD AND BEAT WITH A CROW BAR AND I WALKED AWAY TO BE TAKEN THE HOSPITAL, THE WAS MY 2ND CHANCE FROM THE LORD OUR SAVOR TO SPREAD THE GOSPEL AND BARE MY TESAMONY TO ALL THAT
IS IN NEED TO HEAR IT, AND I LEAVE YOU THIS IN THE NAME OF "JESUS CRIST AMEN""
posted at 18:47:14 on July 7, 2011 by pdnunez


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