By stephen99
1/17/2011 11:26:37 PM
The other day I relapsed again and it was hard to tell my wife but i told myself i was going to be honest with her this time. When i told her she acted like it didn't effect her and she told me she just feels numb. I didn't take the sacrament and the bishop called me in and told me that she is going to leave me if I don't stop and used the scare tactics to try to get me to stop.
This time was hard for me i felt like I knew that the relapse was coming. I went 50 days without looking and the is the first time i have done that in a long time. I wish i could just go cold turkey. With my wife now not caring what happens to me I feel like I might have a harder time. I hope not.
Continuing to struggle


Hang in there    
"Keep courage and have faith. 50 days is a good length of time. What's more, a relapse can be a powerful learning experience if you analyze what happened and grow from it rather than let it get you down. I've relapsed after periods of 30, 60, and 100+ days of sobriety. Something that has helped me tremendously is to know that I am not starting from square one when I fall. Everything I have learned is still with me and I have that much more knowledge to fight temptation the next time it comes around. Ask God to turn this into a learning experience for you and you will come out triumphant.

I obviously don't know your whole story, but from what I see on your post it seems there isn't strong communication between you and your wife. It was through the bishop you found out she might leave you. You also say you don't know if you can make it if she doesn't care what happens to you. Have you told her this? Have you sat down with her and told her how much you need her support and that you are sorry you've hurt her but you want to make things right? Communication is essential in this situation.

Again, I don't know your whole story, I'm just going off of your post."
posted at 10:14:32 on January 18, 2011 by Iwillnot
Keep Trying    
"Don't let what your wife does change your motivation. Be sober for you. It's hard when you relapse after a long period of sobriety (and 50 days is). Try not to get too upset with yourself about it. I'm still struggling to get out of a period of slips after slipping with almost 8 months of sobriety because I let myself believe that because I slipped it was hopeless."
posted at 00:08:08 on January 20, 2011 by dstanley

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"Brothers and sisters, stay on the straight and narrow path. No, stay in the middle of the straight and narrow path. Don't drift; don't wander; don't dabble; be careful. Remember, do not flirt with evil. Stay out of the devil's territory. Do not give Satan any home-field advantage. Living the commandments will bring you the happiness that too many look for in other places. "

— Larry W. Gibbons

General Conference October 2006